Tiredness. I feel that my throat is swollen, results from excessive singing and junk food. I watched a few episodes of 'on call 36 hours' just now. Thanks to chyi. It is really nice. Doctors are so great and professional. Touched by the way they treated patients and the spirit they had. It got me thinking. Doctors help to save life, give treatment and heal patients. They make people so want to be like them. Really...

Midnight

After 'yum cha' session with dad and ah ma, the first thing I do back home is......ta da...sit in front of the computer, until now. It's 12 something already. I have no mood to sleep yet. The food is digested in progress that's why I am so energetic now? Hmm.. Listening to the same music over and over again. So nice! I was typing my thoughts just now, and I left my assignments untouched. It requires me to write about 1500 to 2000 words. What to write? 500 is already a huge sum of number, what more...... But perhaps after babbling it will add up to the words required.

I am here to complain! I just want another few kgs. Is that so difficult my dear body? Yes, I find it real hard to gain weight. Not only me, but my entire family members. Normally, girls topics revolve around gossips, guys, and their diet plans. I never ever thought of diet before. They will restrict their food intake, some even comment that they gain weight after A BITE of chocolate. What the? The land on the other side is always greener. Eat healthily is the most important thing. People will say, you are so skinny, its not convincing as a dietician leh! That's one of the reason I took up the course, to know what is right to eat, and be FAT! Hmm, probably not fat, just look healthy will do. I am working towards it and waiting for that day to come. It will come, it sure will. :)

Meaningful quotes

A cold day

A cold morning. Back to my home sweet home. The timetable is terribly awesome. I hope I mean what I said. Almost a month since I first stepped into my dream university. As expected, it's a really different environment. Although the workload is not much, we have deadlines to meet. August, seems like still so far away, is actually not. The method of teaching the lessons are totally different from that in pre-u. More presentations, more speaking part involved. I have always been a listener in class. Ask me to speak out my opinions? Oh, sorry, my mind is blank. If not being asked or forced to, I would never ever step in front myself. Sigh, I know I shouldn't be like this. The lecturer is right, if you do not do now, you will sure regret later in life. The more you don't want to do, JUST DO IT. Argh..

At this hour, everyone is away for work or school or whatsoever. What am I doing here? Sigh x2.
Try to get ready for my violin exam tomorrow. I don't know why am I in front of the computer now. I don't even try hard during this last minute. A few roads laid in front of me. Though I missed the road I wanted the most, I was given other choices. Regret, doesn't help at all. If we keep looking backwards, we will never move forward. I understand that well. Standing in front of the few roads, I...am still standing, right there. First step, please, first step.

IMU - I miss u

It's raining now. But I feel hot. After waking up from nap, I am not sure if I was really sleeping or just shutting my eyes. So many things in my mind. I just got my ID with my name spelled wrongly. And I realized that only when I reached home. How blur! I feel hungry now. I miss eating Nando's.

Last Friday was like a girls night out. We went for a simple dinner. As usual, I would order my apple juice. She won't miss ordering mushroom soup. We were so high, wanted to try 'tutti frutti' for the first time. She said it's near her house. 'Very near only.' She said. Oookiee. I thought we were so near to the place, still planning what to do then. After several rounds, she started wondering. I can't help but asked, 'are you dreaming that time?' We decided to go back her house after that. Lay on her bed, so comfortable. We took pictures, whats-app each other though we were just beside each other. The day ended with the song she composed. Damn nice, seriously. So, 'tutti frutti' in Manjalara? Still a myth.

Today is Monday, Monday. I have this kind of weird feeling again. I don't know how to describe it. It's like inside you is so heavy. I received a sms. It showed 'Daddy'. Aww you don't know how much I miss you. I am always looking forward to weekend. I want my weekend to spend with my family, if possible. So, when there's activities on weekend, I would think twice. Oh, I guess this is what troubled me? My weekend this week is filled. =(

I love listening to our lecturer, Ms Crescentia. Her words are meaningful and thought-provoking. She shared her stories of losing her loved ones. Death or illness, we can treat them as part of the journey of life. We can't expect life to be filled with joy and happiness only. Right? Everything has two sides. The good and the bad. The positive and the negative. I am touched by the way they deal with it. She asked a question, 'Why do we have to wait until the last moment of our life to start loving people?' Something like that. When we have so many chances to do now, why wait? I tried to hold back my tears. Life, isn't just about 'myself', it includes 'others'. Learn to love, do whatever we are supposed to do, before everything is too late. Life, is a discovery of oneself, a journey.

Change

Morning. Just read a blog of my friend. I am so impressed! One thing is it is really long despite its small writing. Another thing is, it's inspiring. (Okay I find myself run out of topic to continue writing)

I want to write some in-depth stuff but no idea comes to mind. Talking about my blog, I never change it since don't-know-how-many-months ago. Be it the design, or the pictures.

It is because, I am afraid of change, I guess. Take my hair for example, my cousin used to advise me for so long to get me straighten it. And now, I am very reluctant to change my hair colour although I wanted so long to try a new hairstyle. I would go around saying I feel like dye-ing my hair. Then they will say, 'Dye lah'. My typical answer is, 'I am scared.' I am scared that it doesn't look nice. OR it will spoil the hair. Anyway, I might try it someday. Hehe. I just cut my hair. I am surprised that my ah ma saw the changes.

Something I want to do is, CHANGE. Change for the better, of course. If we don't do now, then when?

加油~

终于, 开学了.
还没开学前, 又期待又兴奋。
开学的第一个星期, 兴奋~~

以前开学, 第一天, 总有他的陪伴
没想到大学的第一天, 我亲爱的爹地, 仍然在我身边。
新的环境，新的朋友，
第一星期, 过得还不错。

第二个星期, 的第一天,
很往常一样去上课,
回家了，我外婆家...
睡一觉起来, 有一种不同的感觉。
没错，我想家了。
虽然这里离家里只是一个小时多的路程,
可是.....
爹地, 我很想你~ T.T

昨天, 跟朋友们去skytrex。
竟然plan成功了耶~
起初还很high, 但到一半那些男生开始 ngam ngam cham cham...
说不如去吃jogoya更好, 为什么要那么辛苦?
结果, 我们当然还是完成了~~
全部人都好累了~~
第一次觉得100plus那么好喝~
第一次吃nando's...好好吃哦!!
这一次, 唯一不同的是, 大家都已经找到自己要走的路。

Hmmm...Things are changing all the time.
Although the new place is still new for me and unfamiliar, I must get used to it.
Learn to grow up and stop being a daddy girl.
I miss home...=')