圣诞节快乐

可曾试过，什么都不想做?
只想静静地，就静静地坐着，闭上双眼......
让思绪回荡，再回荡....

尤其是在佳节期间，更是容易这样子。
读读一下，忽然发觉自己已经在发呆的状态。

生活有很多事情都是很难解释的。
就好像我不懂为什么阿公冲凉要冲上一个小时。
这时，正是尿急人士该将耐心派上用场的时候。

不管多么不想要做，我还是得这样做。
因为，没尽一百分努力的后果，不是一般的难受。

不能想象一天没有音乐的日子。
它，让情绪起伏。
它，能勾起记忆。
它，会让嘴角不自觉地往上挂 。
它，陪伴过多少个失眠的夜晚。
它，也让学习有了它更添乐趣。

二十岁的世代，是个怎么样的样子?
只知道，不能再任性。
也是个学习承担责任的年纪。
从被照顾到学习照顾，
从被劝告到学习安慰，
从爱逃避到学习面对。

告诉自己，自己已经拥有了很多很多。
就该像杰伦所说的，
努力过生活，知足最快乐。

最后，圣诞节快乐!!

Love

Time is passing so rapidly, mercilessly, leaving signs on the face of our loved ones. During weekdays I would be away from home and only come back during weekends. That is the moment I look forward to. Every time I look at them after a week, they look more tired and more wrinkles are running over their face. I do not know how to describe my feeling, just plain heart-ache.

Firstly, my lovely Dad. I understand his stress, his worries, his tiredness. Not only he needs to work outside, he also do everything himself when he is home. He said, everything and everyone is dependent on him. He seldom complains and I really hope to help. However, my help is always in vain as I am not alert enough to do what is supposed to do. Meanwhile, I did blamed when any of them in the family did not contribute and left everything to him. Anyway, this is called life. When you care too much, you get more tired.

And then my ah ma. She is much skinnier and also weaker now. Even walking can cause her running out of breath. I feel so sorry when I did not give much assistance. I am sorry when I did not wait for her to finish her sentences patiently. I am sorry when I turned away while she was being negative. I am sorry for being rude to her. I am sorry for not bringing her out often because I thought she was troubling me. I am sorry I am sorry. Recently, she keeps saying she has insomnia at night and had dreams about the deceased. She also said she has not much time left. Often time I tried to ignore yet couldn't help but feel sad at the thought of it. I assured her that she is healthy and she will not leave!

I really hope that I will always appreciate everything and everyone around me. I LOVE THEM.

Malaysian driver?

After the class finished, I went straight out from the lecture hall, to the lift, down the floors, towards my car. I walked and smiled a little when I saw my car. As I was approaching, I noticed something. Some obvious scratches on the side of my car! Red colour paint can be seen! Damn you red car driver, was all I thought. I was hoping it was not some deep scratches. Too bad, it was!

Sigh, I shouldn't have park down here. Why think that they will avoid your car when some drivers are just idiots on the road? It's my fault for parking beside the narrow road. I will never ever ever ever park there again. Mood was affected. On the way back home, my mind was all on whether the scratches can be polished and then removed. Too bad again, polish couldn't help as the scratches are too deep.

I feel like cursing the stupid driver. It seems like I am being a little overdramatic.Sigh. And then I thought of how I scratched my neighbour's car two years ago when I first got my P license. The car alarm rang and the green paint left on it. Everyone would know it was whose 'good job' as there was only one bright green car on that street. Because I was on the rush that day, I just raised my hand to my forehead which signalling 'sorry' and drove away. Although I went to apologize to uncle on the other day, now only I understand that feeling. I really appreciated his forgiveness. Maybe I should do the same thing. Good deeds can cause an impact to the other person and without knowing it becomes a cycle which passes around. The only difference is I don't know who the stupid driver is.

Phew I feel much better after pouring everything out. I guess I got to get some rest first and then fight tomorrow! Don't get me wrong. I am not going to search that person out. Just, fight for the test! Go Go Yee Wen!

Le bread

Today is Monday. I woke up early so that I wouldn't be stuck in the jam which eventually cause unnecessary frustration. The exam was over and one more left. Not the end yet as more are coming.

Talking about yesterday, I followed my Dad to Mid Valley to buy cake for my grandpa. We went there because he said that the cake there look nice. Actually that was fruit tart and Dad didn't know about it. Luckily there was still a whole, complete tart and we bought it. The main thing I want to talk about is, I actually bought a bread cost RM9.80. Dad didn't realized it was that expensive until it was paid. The bread is almost as hard as a rock. I had a bite this morning, and it is just some normal, tasteless flour. A bread cost RM9.80, only a not-so-smart person will buy it I guess? Filled with regret, I asked my friends to try and give comments. Some of them said not bad and quite nice. At least that made me feel better. Until I went home and let my aunt to try. She said that she would consider even if it is a RM0.98 bread. T.T

What bother me is not only the money spent, but also the stupidity shown. Why I bought it? Because I saw the tag 'walnut and cheese' written, I thought it must be some cheesy yummy incredibly delicious bread with that kind of price. Who knows that 'good-looking' thing only has the appearance and no content? I should have thought of a bread is not worth that much. Now I am having an issue with a BREAD. I feel heart-ache, what more the one who paid for it. I know that at that moment, if I was using my own hard-earned money, I wouldn't even look at it. I feel sorry for my Dad. I promise myself that I will think twice before buying anything in the future.

We had a dinner celebration. After a nice meal, we ate the tart bought while having some nice chit-chat. We talked about the 'Gangnam style' played outside, the married couple to the trip we had 2 years ago.That was the first time we saw snow and we were excited every time the topic was raised. Sweet memories are something money can't buy and they will be with you forever. I am glad that we have them and will continue to make more.

下輩子，無論愛與不愛，都不會再見

~下輩子，無論愛與不愛，都不會再見~


我兒：寫這備忘錄給你，基於三個原則：
一、人生福禍無常，誰也不知可以活多久，

有些事情還是早一點說好。

二、我是你的父親，我不跟你說，沒有人會跟你說。

三、這備忘錄記載的，
都是我經過慘痛失敗得回來的體驗，
可以為你的成長省回不少冤枉路。


以下，便是你在人生中要好好記住的事：

對你不好的人，你不要太介懷，
在你一生中，沒有人有義務要對你好，
除了我和你媽媽。
至於那些對你好的人，你除了要珍惜、感恩外，
也請多防備一點，因為，每個人做每件事，
總有一個原因，
他對你好，未必真的是因為喜歡你，
請你必須搞清楚，而不必太快將對方看作真朋友。

沒有人是不可代替的，沒有東西是必須擁有的。
看透了這一點，將來你身邊的人不再要你，
或許失去了世間上最愛的一切時也應該明白，
這並不是什麼大不了的事。

生命是短暫的，今日你還在浪費著生命，
明日會發覺生命已遠離你了。
因此，愈早珍惜生命，你享受生命的日子也愈多，
與其盼望長壽，倒不如早點享受。


世界上並沒有最愛這回事，
愛情只是一種霎時的感覺，
而這感覺絕對會隨時日、心境而改變。

如果你的所謂最愛離開你，請耐心地等候一下，
讓時日慢慢沖洗，讓心靈慢慢沉澱，
你的苦就會慢慢淡化。
不要過分憧憬愛情的美，不要過分誇大失戀的悲。


雖然很多有成就的人士並沒有受過很多教育，
但並不等於不用功讀書，就一定可以成功。

你學到的知識，就是你擁有的武器。
可以白手興家，但不可以手無寸鐵，謹記！

我不會要求你供養我下半輩子，
同樣地我也不會供養你的下半輩子。
當你長大到可以獨立的時候，我的責任已經完結。
以後，你要坐巴士還是 Benz（賓士），
吃魚翅還是粉絲，都要自己負責。


你可以要求自己守信，但不能要求別人守信。
你可以要求自己對人好，但不能期待人家對你好。
你怎樣對人，並不代表人家就會怎樣對你。
如果看不透這一點，你只會徒添不必要的煩惱。

人要發達，還是要努力工作才可以，
世界上並沒有免費午餐。

親人只有一次的緣分，
無論這輩子我和你會相處多久，
也請好好珍惜共聚的時光。
下輩子，無論愛與不愛，都不會再見。

本文摘錄自~香港著名DJ~梁繼章先生~給兒子的信

父母要孝養，身體要保養，
飲食要營養，講話要涵養。

子女要教養，生病要調養，
感情要培養，做人要修養。

迷路的一天

此时此刻，我一定要把现在的心情写出来，不然会憋闷。一大早起床，我太高估马来西亚的交通状况了。平时十五分钟的路程，我半个小时前出门，真是太天真了。最重要的是，我是去考试的哦。喔，尽入眼帘的，不用多说，也知道。

不停地告诉自己，别紧张，没关系的，快到了。很悠哉地驾着驾着，越来越觉得不对劲，怎么还没到?原来，我....迷路了。已经到了吉隆坡市中心，立刻打电话问路。‘你现在在哪里?'  我真的不知道！！ 那就要回去 Jalan Kuching 再走过了。告诉自己，要冷静!突然想到是在PWTC对面，跟着路牌走，终于！啊!!到了，门关了。只好绕 No entry 的路去后门。
还被那边的人酸，说迟到了在校园honk.不管了，去找地点。
匆匆忙忙....

考speaking. 中间突然顿了很久，因为想不到points了。唉....挫败感...
终于考完了。当我还在为自己找到路暗自欢呼时，回家的路上我又....走错路了。 我爸明明说那条路很容易走，直直走就会到了。哦，我就’直直走‘咯。忽然之间来到了round about, 哪一条? 左转，又到了可恨的KL.

又走回刚刚的路，这次选择直走，该不会又走错吧?
这条是可以回到家，但好像走远了。还剩下最后一条路没走，也许是最靠近的也说不定。

或许，走错路不完全是坏事。走错了路，就会知道，这不对，接下来，就会走对啦。
有些事情，不能完全靠别人。就像那个’直直走‘，自己没去走，怎么知道，它是那么地直吗？
那条路对别人来说，可能很好走，但不一定适合自己。走过，走错，再走过，才懂。很多事情都必须要靠自己去经历。错了，也学会了。

下次，有长辈再说 '我吃盐多过你吃米' 的时候，我也可以理直气壮地说 '我迷路多过你吃番薯'.
=)

Having insomnia in the middle of the night makes us feel so helpless.
With only few hours of sleep, I actually woke up before the alarm rang.
Yes the brain never rest. To class, with my eyes on the lecturer and my mind wandered.
Today is Friday man! Today should be the day for me to go home!
However, the Saturday is occupied. One rest day is not enough!
Maybe I am already used to the relax way of passing time during the past few months, I find it really tiring coming back home after sunset.
Need time to adjust the life style.
And, I need to be tougher.
Go Go Yee Wen!

三更半夜，格外地想家。
之前得空时嫌太空闲，忙时怨没得好好休息。
凌晨三点多，好想...好想...

知道，生活中发生的每一件事情，都会带着一个讯息。
比较正确的说法，应该是，是得是失，当中有要你领悟的道理。
但，当你正真经历，小事，大事，不是像说的那么简单。
也许，单纯地把太多东西想得太简单，抑或是，想得太复杂。
转一转想法，心情也会跟着转变。
然而，这要是那么简单的话，那，就不会有‘烦恼’这家伙存在了。

不在家里，多了自由，多了放纵。
微笑，每一天都很美好。

Waking up early on Sunday morning. Morning!

There are so many things on my mind. Or perhaps human will never appreciate things until the day they lose it. I am just wondering about the path I am on now. Is it the correct one? I did not get the full support I need. Maybe we shouldn't be too dependent on people. I can't help but keep thinking about what will happen in few years time. Thinking too far? Yea I am afraid so.
It is not easy to 'Live the moment now'. Is there anyone out there manage to do this? 

In daily life, we meet people from different background with different personality. Even in our own family, 6 person means 6 different individual which are unique. It is common that we only fancy the good traits. However, the harmony will not last long if tolerance and trust are not there. Everyone has their own reason for things they have done.
Anyway, I just want to remind myself that I am already so lucky and blissful.

Everyday is beautiful. =)

虞美人盛开的山坡

趁还没开学，可以在家，想做什么就做什么，
去到pps，点击我最爱的宫崎骏经典动画。
Hmmm,这次，看什么好呢?

虞美人盛开的山坡～
不知道是什么意思，但是知道，一定好看。
宫崎骏的作品，总是隐藏着一些讯息，正面的讯息。
这一部，当然也不例外。
看着的时候，我不让自己去'咕咕' (google)
因为，想慢慢品尝，每一个画面，每一个情绪。

一如往常，尽入眼帘的是唯美的大自然，还有平常不过的日常生活。
平静的大海，弯曲的小巷，繁忙的市集。
这是个讲述在六十年代的故事，也就是世界大战二后没多久的事。
主角是个非常懂事的少女，松崎海。
每天都在期待爸爸的归来。
在学校认识了一位学长，在缘分的带领下，互相都对对方存有好感。
当关系有更进一步的发展时，发现了一个不知该不该高兴的事实。
除了男女之间纯纯的感情，当然少不了亲情，友情。
真的很佩服他能把所有要表达的，放进一个故事里，生动之余带有启发性。
看着的时候总会不自觉的嘴角往上挂。
写着的同时，听着主题曲。
好好听，虽然有点悲伤的感觉。
永远支持宫崎骏作品!! <3

張忠謀：大學生要做的11件事

 15-24岁， 是人生中的关键十年。 青少年该把握这段时间充实自我， 而大学生踏入社会前又该如何准备自己，提升竞争力?

很多人對張忠謀的認識是在他成功後，擔任德州儀器副總裁、工研院院長、創辦台積電。但對於他成功前的少年人生，卻知之甚少。十八歲以前的張忠謀，跟著父母，持續搬家，坐在露天大卡車裡拉著綁貨的繩子一路顛簸，躲避戰火。
但他日後回憶起，卻覺得無論近年的旅遊如何舒適與奢侈，最令他懷念的還從上海到重慶的跋涉。大時代的動盪讓年輕時的他刻苦自律；而十八歲即赴美國求 學的他，則在哈佛接收了世界的能量。　他在自傳裡寫道：「十八歲去美國前，父母是我的天地，之後我凡事只能倚賴自己。」因為青年時特殊的生命經歷，他知道 青年的學習對人生的重要性。
不久前他在新生入學典禮向上千名學生演講，當時他把牛頓的一句話送給學生，「如果我看得更遠，是因為站在巨人的 肩膀上。」 他知道成功不是偶然，而是每個當下的努力；他說這世代要先打破迷思，因為進了一個好的大學不等於鐵飯票，以後成功的機率也不一定比別人高。競爭邏輯在改 變，但不變的是持續的努力。
大學生如何透過這位巨人的肩膀學習，以下他的演講應該會給許多青少年啟發。
大學四年，我認為大學生應該要多花心思在十一件事情上：

第一點：養成一個終生的、健康的生活習慣

假如你已經養成了這個習慣，那很好，希望你繼續維持；假如你尚未養成這個習慣，那麼請好好把握十八歲這個年紀，因為這近乎是最後的機會。 錯過了大學四年這段養成健康生活習慣的時期，以後要再擁有健康的生活習慣，恐怕將更不容易。而沒有健康，一切都不用談。
況且，現在大家醫學的知識比起五十年前更豐富，醫學也有很大的進步，保健知識比起我十八歲時候好多了。 健康生活的習慣包含了運動，經常運動不一定是要以成為一個很好的運動家或者校運選手為目標，而是養成一個習慣，把運動當作健康生活的一部份。

第二點：「培養志願」，為自己許一個更細微的志願

例如，你未來要走哪一個行業？要在政治上、法律上、科學上、學術上還是到企業界？這個就是志願。
假 如目前尚未決定志願的話也不用太擔心，這往往是大學二、三年級甚至於是更後面才能做決定的事。 但希望你在這大學四年裡儘早有自己的志願，這樣就可以決定你要在哪些事情上下功夫、花時間，也可以早一點知道自己事業的方向、人生的方向，進而知道自己要 在什麼學問上多努力。 志願可以分成學術上的志願與非學術相關的志願。
學術上的志願就至少是一門主修，無論物理、化學、電機、機械都好，甚至是寫作等藝文方面的志願，都屬於學術上的志願。 除了學術以外的其他志願則屬於非學術相關的志願，範圍更廣。例如：當立法委員、到公司裡頭作經理、工程師、總經理、當律師等都是非純學術的志願。
無論是哪一類的志願，一旦有了志願以後，學習會比較有方向。

第三點：要用功學習

假 如你們的志願是學術志願，是未來想當教授、做研究，那麼你們盡可能花百分之一百學習的時間專注在專門的領域上。 若是政治、法律、企業、工商業、服務業等非學術相關的志願，則建議你們頂多在專業領域上花二分之一到三分之二的時間即可；另外的二分之一到三分之一的時間 則可以用來學習與你們的志願相關的東西，但不在你的專門領域裡頭。
舉例來說，如果你的志願是在企業裡頭工作，而你的主修卻是電機系的話，電 機是你吃飯的本錢，你得花二分之一到三分之二的時間在電機的領域裡頭用功學習；另外三分之一到一半的時間，因為你預備到企業界做事，所以你要了解包括電 腦、資訊、半導體、通訊等資訊，閱讀國內外報章雜誌、相關行業的新聞報導；除此之外，你也得花點時間學學會計、財務、行銷，看看企業是如何競爭，甚至應該 注意一下這個行業公司的股價，還有股價漲跌波動的理由為何？ 假如你預備以政治來作為志願，那更有一套經典式的學習領域，包括：飽覽歷史、地理、語文方面的書籍，還有閱讀傳記，這是作為一個政治人非常經典式的訓練。

第四點：學習的時候不要背書，要徹底了解

無 論是看書或是閱讀其他資訊，有時候不是一本書，而只是論文中的幾個段落或是幾頁內容，都要徹底了解。徹底了解比你看多來得重要。而且千萬不要僅靠你的記憶 力背書，背書只是通過考試的一個辦法而已。你目前的人生已經通過了種種考試，之後的人生不是挑一個習題或者寫一篇短文的這種考試。未來你人生中的每一天可 能都在考試，但那些考試是需要徹底了解與融會貫通的。
以我自己為例，我的學士跟碩士都是主修機械，可是我一進產業就是進入半導體業，剛開始 我對半導體業是一竅不通。可是我的物理相當好，於是我買了一本當時半導體的經典著作，是夏克萊（William Shockley）的一本書，有兩百多頁，我花了四、 五個月的時間從頭到尾徹底地學習與了解。 那時年紀輕，大概二十四歲。白天我在生產線上做事，晚上則花好幾個鐘頭看半導體的書籍。白天的工作雖然讓我對半導體有基本的認識，但實際上對我的半導體學 問幫助不大，我的半導體知識主要是靠晚上幾個鐘頭的閱讀而來。
我每天晚上頂多看這本書的十頁，有些地方看來看去還是看不懂，這時候就要找一 個教師。 我那個時候有一位非常喜歡喝酒的同事，跟我住在同一個旅館裡，他有豐富的半導體學問。他因為很喜歡喝酒，幾乎每天七點鐘到十點鐘都在旅館樓下的bar裡面 喝酒，所以很容易找到他。 雖然是在喝酒，可是他沒有真正喝醉。我念書這三個鐘頭中，有看不懂的地方，或者是想來想去還是不懂的地方，我就去找他，我不僅可以找到他，百分之九十的問 題，他也都可以替我解答。
學校的環境對學習很好，可是要抱著徹底了解的心去請教，而且要適時尋找與運用資源。

第五點：學會「獨立思考」

獨立思考在中國、台灣的文化裡比較欠缺。所謂的獨立思考就是不要人云亦云，不要看了什麼文章，或者聽了一個演講就認為是這樣。看了文章或聽了名人的演講後，要去想他講的是不是事實？然後去找另外一個來源來求證。

第六點：學創新

創新有很多是來自天分，但有一部份是可以靠後天培養。培養創新的途徑其實就是之前說的徹底了解、用功學習與獨立思考，這三件事與創新有強烈的正相關。

第七點：學中文

雖然大學生的中文已經學了十八年，可是絕大部份學生的中文還是不夠好。台灣中學的中文教育跟我小時候在大陸所學的十分相似，均注重讀跟寫，當然還有背書與背古文。那為什麼很多人十八歲了還不夠好，甚至到了四十歲都還不夠好？主要是因為他們缺乏「聽」跟「講」的能力。
什 麼是「聽的能力」？你跟人家講話，對方會有感覺，但可能沒有真正在聽，那就是對方聽的能力差。 我是董事長，照理說在公司裡頭大家應該聽我講話，可是我發現常常我講了一句話後，其實我接下來有四、五句話要說，但我在講完一句後就被對方打斷了，因為他 以為他知道我接下來會講什麼，但事實上百分之八十的時候他都猜錯了，這就是聽的能力不夠。
講話人人都會講，因為中文是大家的母語，可是「講」的能力還是有層次之別。講話的第一層能力是「詞能達意」；其次是能夠「有邏輯的解釋一件事情」，就是口頭上能有邏輯性的解釋好一件事情，這個恐怕只有百分之六、七十的人能夠做到。
再高一層則是「有說服力地表達一件事情」，這部份可能只有百分之二、三十都還不到的人達得到。那最高的層次是「雄辯」，這部份一百個人中恐怕一個人都沒有。事實上，幾乎每個人都可以提高聽的能力，在說話方面也能達到具說服力的層次，這是可以花時間、花功夫學習的。

第八點：學英文

英文非常重要，因為未來的五十年，甚至於更長的時間，英文會是世界上非常重要的語言。雖然要一個十八歲的人學英文已經有點晚了，但是還是可以補救。 補救的話可以從「讀、聽、寫、講」這四方面來進行。
學 中文要注意的是「聽跟講」，學英文則是要多注意「讀跟聽」。 到了十八歲時如果你的英文講得不好，要你流利地講英文會比要你流利地寫英文還來得困難，但重要的是你能夠流利地「讀」，這對十八歲的人來說還不晚，要期許 自己能夠做到讀英文跟讀中文一樣地流利，這點相當重要。 你可以給自己一個測驗。現在台灣翻譯的書很多，很多英文書被翻譯成中文。
兩、三年 以後，假如你是願意看原文書而不是中文譯本，而且能夠流利地閱讀的話，那麼你就做到了。 英文聽力也一樣，到了十八歲時，如果英文底子沒有很好的話，已經很難再要求英文講得流利或者寫得好，但是英文聽的能力可以再加強，把英文的讀與聽的能力訓 練好是非常重要的事情。

第九點：學習世界

要學習全世界，不只學習台灣、大陸、亞洲。學習世界的前提是要有一定的英文能力，假如你無法流利地閱讀英文，要學習世界就比較困難。 以新聞而言，台灣報紙報導國外的新聞的量很缺乏，台灣的新聞台雖然有時候會報導國外新聞，但簡直是少到幾乎沒有。
所 以我曾經說過要學習世界，起步點就是每天看《國際先鋒論壇報》（International Herald Tribune），你會在裡頭看到不同的世界。除了《國際先鋒論壇報》之外，可以再看看《經濟學人雜誌》（The Economist），還有美國的《Business Week》。

第十點：學演講、學辯論

這個跟我剛剛講中英文的訓練有關，演講是講，辯論又是聽又是講。電視上有很多時論者， 他們的演講技巧很好，簡直是口若懸河，但是內容不見得那麼豐富，演講跟辯論需要技巧，更需要內涵。

第十一點：也是最重要的一點，做一個「誠與信」的人

「誠」就是不講謊話，不是只對你熟的人不講謊話，而是任何時候都不講謊話；「信」就是你說要做什麼，你就會不計代價來完成。我期許大家做一個誠與信的人。 我認為社會有沒有提升與社會上的領導人有關。
我 希望你們現在十八歲以後都能成為各個領域的領導人，也是一個在誠信上不容置疑的人，誠信之外還能與別人既競爭又合作。 在大學的時候學會了如何既競爭又合作，希望出了校門還是能夠繼續如此，那我們的社會才會提升。

（本文摘錄整理自二○○七年張忠謀交大新生入學典禮演講）

Good Afternoon! Heee... I feel so sleepy right now. It was a really long time ago since I sit in front of college/uni's computer, and do things other than assignments. Okay I did spend a few minutes on checking updates, but not like what I do now, sitting here, open every social page I have. While listening to music, I kind of enjoy it, although I really don't like to stay out until night time. Call me whatever, I like to go home earlier than cinderella. =D

This semester is coming to an end very soon. I did my media essay at the very last minute, that is a day before the deadline. It requires me to write less than 1000 words, I wrote 600 plus words. I should actually write at least 900 words, but.... You wrote there less than 1000 words what! I am not wrong either! LOL anyway I am the weird one writing the weird number of words. Come today, the most special test I have ever take. We took the test in the computer lab, given one and an half hour, we were required to write an essay of less than 600 words. We can refer to the articles too. It was an open exam. Luckily my friend told me that it is plus minus 100 words. So, I gave her 556 words. During the exam, you can hear 'dik dak dik dak'. That was the typing sound. After that, I realized I misunderstood the question and yes, I SCREWED UP THE WHOLE THING.

I am already in this holiday mood. I feel more lazy. =(
I am using the keyboard which some of the alphabets are gone due to overused, I can type the words out without really looking. Wow! Not a big deal. Most people can do that as they are typing almost everyday. I still like to..Wow!
Only until recently that I know that our country is far less advanced compared to some of the other countries. We are 10 years behind our neighbour country Singapore! This is a very sad case. We can do better.

Sleepiness~ zzz~

Love Chong Wei

An important day for Malaysians. I guess everyone rushed eating their dinner, and got ready in front of the telly before 8pm. My family had no difference. The match!! Nicest ever!! Every time our Dato Lee Chong Wei play with Lin Dan, I cannot sit still!! Honestly, I went to the toilet more than 5 times during the match because I wish to see miracle when I come back. To see that our points are far above theirs. First match was damn awesome!! So proud of him. Skip the second match. The last match!!! I almost can't breath. I don't even dare to look at them playing. And I am just in front of the screen+Don't know how many miles away from London. But our hero, Dato Lee Chong Wei, he got to face it. Every seconds count. He could not risk more mistakes. With the nation's hope on him, he played with heavy burden. Then came the breathe taking moment of 19-20, and then... Although I feel a little bit disappointed, I feel very proud of him. Gold does not matter. We all can see your effort! MALAYSIANS LOVE YOU CHONG WEI!

Midnight again. I feel so uncomfortable. Feel so sick. I wanted to sleep but I find myself couldn't breath properly when I am lying on the bed. Worried. Normally, I would sleep like no one business when I was sick and woke up feeling better. But now, I can't. Sleepy yet can't sleep.

Health is wealth, indeed. After eating mediicine, what else can I do except wait? Doctors doctors, on call 36 hours? Come visit me please, I want to sleep I want to sleep!! But the breathlessness is scary! Dry cough, the cough is really so dry. I feel water in my lungs. Everything just don't feel right.

Once again, I wanna go home.

Tiredness. I feel that my throat is swollen, results from excessive singing and junk food. I watched a few episodes of 'on call 36 hours' just now. Thanks to chyi. It is really nice. Doctors are so great and professional. Touched by the way they treated patients and the spirit they had. It got me thinking. Doctors help to save life, give treatment and heal patients. They make people so want to be like them. Really...

Midnight

After 'yum cha' session with dad and ah ma, the first thing I do back home is......ta da...sit in front of the computer, until now. It's 12 something already. I have no mood to sleep yet. The food is digested in progress that's why I am so energetic now? Hmm.. Listening to the same music over and over again. So nice! I was typing my thoughts just now, and I left my assignments untouched. It requires me to write about 1500 to 2000 words. What to write? 500 is already a huge sum of number, what more...... But perhaps after babbling it will add up to the words required.

I am here to complain! I just want another few kgs. Is that so difficult my dear body? Yes, I find it real hard to gain weight. Not only me, but my entire family members. Normally, girls topics revolve around gossips, guys, and their diet plans. I never ever thought of diet before. They will restrict their food intake, some even comment that they gain weight after A BITE of chocolate. What the? The land on the other side is always greener. Eat healthily is the most important thing. People will say, you are so skinny, its not convincing as a dietician leh! That's one of the reason I took up the course, to know what is right to eat, and be FAT! Hmm, probably not fat, just look healthy will do. I am working towards it and waiting for that day to come. It will come, it sure will. :)

Meaningful quotes

A cold day

A cold morning. Back to my home sweet home. The timetable is terribly awesome. I hope I mean what I said. Almost a month since I first stepped into my dream university. As expected, it's a really different environment. Although the workload is not much, we have deadlines to meet. August, seems like still so far away, is actually not. The method of teaching the lessons are totally different from that in pre-u. More presentations, more speaking part involved. I have always been a listener in class. Ask me to speak out my opinions? Oh, sorry, my mind is blank. If not being asked or forced to, I would never ever step in front myself. Sigh, I know I shouldn't be like this. The lecturer is right, if you do not do now, you will sure regret later in life. The more you don't want to do, JUST DO IT. Argh..

At this hour, everyone is away for work or school or whatsoever. What am I doing here? Sigh x2.
Try to get ready for my violin exam tomorrow. I don't know why am I in front of the computer now. I don't even try hard during this last minute. A few roads laid in front of me. Though I missed the road I wanted the most, I was given other choices. Regret, doesn't help at all. If we keep looking backwards, we will never move forward. I understand that well. Standing in front of the few roads, I...am still standing, right there. First step, please, first step.

IMU - I miss u

It's raining now. But I feel hot. After waking up from nap, I am not sure if I was really sleeping or just shutting my eyes. So many things in my mind. I just got my ID with my name spelled wrongly. And I realized that only when I reached home. How blur! I feel hungry now. I miss eating Nando's.

Last Friday was like a girls night out. We went for a simple dinner. As usual, I would order my apple juice. She won't miss ordering mushroom soup. We were so high, wanted to try 'tutti frutti' for the first time. She said it's near her house. 'Very near only.' She said. Oookiee. I thought we were so near to the place, still planning what to do then. After several rounds, she started wondering. I can't help but asked, 'are you dreaming that time?' We decided to go back her house after that. Lay on her bed, so comfortable. We took pictures, whats-app each other though we were just beside each other. The day ended with the song she composed. Damn nice, seriously. So, 'tutti frutti' in Manjalara? Still a myth.

Today is Monday, Monday. I have this kind of weird feeling again. I don't know how to describe it. It's like inside you is so heavy. I received a sms. It showed 'Daddy'. Aww you don't know how much I miss you. I am always looking forward to weekend. I want my weekend to spend with my family, if possible. So, when there's activities on weekend, I would think twice. Oh, I guess this is what troubled me? My weekend this week is filled. =(

I love listening to our lecturer, Ms Crescentia. Her words are meaningful and thought-provoking. She shared her stories of losing her loved ones. Death or illness, we can treat them as part of the journey of life. We can't expect life to be filled with joy and happiness only. Right? Everything has two sides. The good and the bad. The positive and the negative. I am touched by the way they deal with it. She asked a question, 'Why do we have to wait until the last moment of our life to start loving people?' Something like that. When we have so many chances to do now, why wait? I tried to hold back my tears. Life, isn't just about 'myself', it includes 'others'. Learn to love, do whatever we are supposed to do, before everything is too late. Life, is a discovery of oneself, a journey.

Change

Morning. Just read a blog of my friend. I am so impressed! One thing is it is really long despite its small writing. Another thing is, it's inspiring. (Okay I find myself run out of topic to continue writing)

I want to write some in-depth stuff but no idea comes to mind. Talking about my blog, I never change it since don't-know-how-many-months ago. Be it the design, or the pictures.

It is because, I am afraid of change, I guess. Take my hair for example, my cousin used to advise me for so long to get me straighten it. And now, I am very reluctant to change my hair colour although I wanted so long to try a new hairstyle. I would go around saying I feel like dye-ing my hair. Then they will say, 'Dye lah'. My typical answer is, 'I am scared.' I am scared that it doesn't look nice. OR it will spoil the hair. Anyway, I might try it someday. Hehe. I just cut my hair. I am surprised that my ah ma saw the changes.

Something I want to do is, CHANGE. Change for the better, of course. If we don't do now, then when?

加油~

终于, 开学了.
还没开学前, 又期待又兴奋。
开学的第一个星期, 兴奋~~

以前开学, 第一天, 总有他的陪伴
没想到大学的第一天, 我亲爱的爹地, 仍然在我身边。
新的环境，新的朋友，
第一星期, 过得还不错。

第二个星期, 的第一天,
很往常一样去上课,
回家了，我外婆家...
睡一觉起来, 有一种不同的感觉。
没错，我想家了。
虽然这里离家里只是一个小时多的路程,
可是.....
爹地, 我很想你~ T.T

昨天, 跟朋友们去skytrex。
竟然plan成功了耶~
起初还很high, 但到一半那些男生开始 ngam ngam cham cham...
说不如去吃jogoya更好, 为什么要那么辛苦?
结果, 我们当然还是完成了~~
全部人都好累了~~
第一次觉得100plus那么好喝~
第一次吃nando's...好好吃哦!!
这一次, 唯一不同的是, 大家都已经找到自己要走的路。

Hmmm...Things are changing all the time.
Although the new place is still new for me and unfamiliar, I must get used to it.
Learn to grow up and stop being a daddy girl.
I miss home...=')

Think positive

在一个风和日丽的早晨, 我撞到了人家的车~
第一个反应, ‘我撞车?' 心里想道..
不敢相信~
那个人下车, 又跟我拿IC 和 driving license..
又在那边拍照...

我, 不知所措~
拨个电话, 'Daddy, 我撞到人家的车.'
‘我现在过来'
没有你, 怎么办. T.T

我在等他骂我, 他没有.
把车带去修车厂, 几百块免不了
因为， 是我的错~

接着去吃早餐~
我第一次有这种抬不起头来的感觉.
快点回家啦, 我不要给他看到我哭~

阿嫲问, '做么去撞人家的车???'
我, '.....'
阿公, '驾车要很专心~~'
Daddy 回, ' 她驾人家的车撞, 这辆又撞, 又撞 xxx 的车....'

曾经认为, 驾了两年多, 应该很熟悉了~
In other word, 自以为是.
这次教训, 希望我会永远记着~

危机就是转机, THINK POSITIVE~

I will always love you

Recently I got frustrated very easily...
when I was watching drama and someone called 'Yee Wen!'

when I was eating and someone said 'Eat more of this~'
I nodded but in my heart...' I will eat it, just not yet but u already....'

when I was sleeping with air-cond on and when it was time to off it, I off it...
someone asked me to turn off the main switch although I said it is really okay to leave it till the next morning.(I gave example like those places never off also no problem...but..). I don't want that someone with injured leg to climb up and down. So I climbed all the way UP from my comfortable bed...(tho it was less than 5 seconds but that was enough to disturb my sleep)

when I got on my bed and someone's pants' something scratched my leg . Started bleeding. I threw a tantrum...

when I sweat a lot...@@

And those are the time...I started to blame others...anyone/anything...
to make myself feel better...
After I calm down, I regretted..sometimes not.

Anyway, I always love the 'someone'ss.. <3

双亲节快乐~

落雨声 是思念的声 离开故乡孤单地打拼
有阿母车的衫 毋惊寒 阿爸尚爱问 你甘有吃饱

细汉时讲欲做有孝囝仔 欲乎恁人买大屋大车
这玛大汉无闲 为了生活 屋内是无影无声

爱的温暖 不是好额 父母的心意你甘知影
过时过节 有子儿作伴 就是好命
你若关心得说给他们听 毋免等有闲才返屋看
父母心内 你是尚疼的心肝 爱拢无变卦

你的心内 是一个有孝仔
甘是一个名 .....

福建歌~~
我觉得好好听哦~~~很有意思~

提早祝, 双亲节快乐~~ =)

Wootz 新一天鲁~
昨晚失眠了~~
因为......天气热 + 蚊子多 + 脑袋根本就没在休息
觉得....害怕 + 压力 + 累 ~
累...我最不想承认的...
工作, 累. 没工作, 又累~
有时候, 连自己也不了解自己...

最近非常轰动的绑架案~~
在fb也看到许多其它的 case.
不明白为什么他们能那么残忍~~
那种遭遇, 想一想, 都怕~~
现在的社会, 腐败了~
所以, 出街的话一定要非常非常小心!

世事无常~
我老师的朋友, 跟她同一天生日, 说好要一起庆祝生日,
谁知道, 在睡着睡着, 就........
非常突然~~
我又想东想西了....
要是有一天, 身边很重要的人......
我接受不到!
就觉得, 在忙自己的东西时, 好像忽略了他们....
要抽时间多陪陪他们了~~

arrrrrr~~~ 这个星期快点儿过吧~~~=D

世界末日?

雨天~~~

雨下得好大~ 但还是得去class...
去到那里, 拿出电话, 原来老师还在塞车。
白跑了~每次不看电话的后果~~

没关系...去书局看书咯~~~
静静地....看着看着...突然感觉到地上震~
我抬头看看是不是有'大只佬'走过~
没有...继续读我的...
震第二次, 再抬头, 不是啊~ 我想太多了?
接着听到后面的uncle讲, '地震?'
我回头八...'系咯系咯..我都feel到~'
'震了两三次, 再震就要出去了~' 他说...
由于本人很怕死, 走为上策~~

刚好前几天看了香港贺岁片'喜上加喜'..
也是说到关于世界末日的东东....
所以, 想了想, 世界..真的会末日吗?
如果, 世界真的会末日.........
有没有想过, 什么东西对自己很重要吗?
还有什么事情, 因为之前的一大堆理由, 而还没去完成吗?
这样好像不够恐怖...
这样好了....
如果....你只剩下二十四小时, 你...想要干嘛?
说真的, 还没好好想过...
除非tsunami就在不远处~~
不应该不应该~~~
待会儿要想想了~~

无论如何, 最重要的, 就是不要有遗憾~
说的总比做的容易...
尽力就好~~~
加油加油~~ ^~^

四月了..

四月了~~
四月的第一天, 没有想到会中招, 好气又好笑~ ><

嗯...就回家乡扫墓...超爱福州菜~ 好吃到爆!! <3
一直吃吃吃~~ *幸福*
胃啊胃， 可怜你了~
第三年的earth hour 没办法在家关灯, 才懂得每年都会撞期~

今天早班, 放工后心血来潮叫阿嫲去'记得食’
又吃到饱饱~~
然后然后, 去village mall 的 mbo~
为了那包popcorn (应该是吃腻了, 还是太饱, 今天的ma ma dei~ )
看 'Mirror mirror'...
太好看了！ hahaha~
男的帅, 女的, 也太美了吧?
编剧也太好了, 有创意到不行!
整套戏非常饱满...err...就...很精彩!!
很多笑点~~ haha~~
我阿嫲竟然没有睡觉耶!!
而且她看到一半还...'这个是那个歹查某啦!'
wah...我立刻 shh.....她看惯福建连续剧了 LOL!
接近尾声, 他们尽然来一段舞蹈~
笑到飙泪!! haha!!
这是那首歌, 听它的曲已经很 zadao 了...看了舞蹈更beh tahan!! haha!!
A nice day~ ^^

三月了...

現在...三月了耶~~
真的很不知不覺~
时间过得太快了~ 快得...好可怕...

( 又乱吃东西...现在喉咙痛~ >< )
工作的第二个月~~
现在背痛...其实是因为自己总是很不小心~
在pharmacy工作, 当然, 或多或少, 会学到一些东西~~
有什么check up时, 得到老板的同意, 去check 一下,
原来, 当你以为你很健康时, 再想清楚吧~
看了结果, 怕了 ~
请不要小看你放进嘴里的食物~~ and...多运动吧~
我不懂的是, 他说我不够睡眠~ O.O!

工作了...懂得...
原来, 工作...是累的...
原来, 钱...不容易赚...
原来, 学历...很重要...
原来, 我...那么不懂事.......

最近发觉, 爹地好像瘦了, 很明显的多了皱纹...
看着他憔悴的脸, 心疼...
他总是告诉我们...life is not easy...
渐渐...懂了...
多么希望能帮上什么忙...

听着' 那些年'...重播又重播...不会腻...
但...当你还在单曲循环...沉溺在过去的回忆时...
别人也许已经在欣赏着新歌了...
也许...随机播放...是最好的吧...

希望自己学会慢下脚步...好好珍惜身边人...
加油! Hwaiting!! <3

=)

最近心情因为某些朋友而常常低落。

自己也给自己吓到，没想到会为朋友emo成这个屎样 >.<

还好还好，有几位超级好的朋友~

适当的时候开导鼓励我~

-

再加上最近提早起床的效应，

我每次都恢复得很快~

再严重的emo，睡醒看星星就变ok多了！

[由于本人4am起床，所以还是可以看到星星的 xD]

阿不然就等太阳出来，晒晒橙橙阳光，也是很快ok起来。

就。。。觉得。。。

其实世界还是很美好啊~

就。。。觉得。。。

其实我的烦恼真的很渺小~

就。。。觉得。。。

其实我还有很多很多很多微笑和前进的理由~

-

{严重警告你们现在立刻马上去youtube search ‘Audiomachine - Breath and Life’ 来听！]

Or –> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wbQjKOMjYSg

[一定要！]

伤心事，每个人都会遇见的；

怎样面对，才是重点。

[你开了歌没有？！ XD]

遇到伤心事，要自己不伤心，更本就是太勉强了。

所以呢，给自己点点时间emo完，emo不完就去睡觉；

Emo完/起床后就振作起来，敢敢和问题fight过！！

不要让昨天的烦恼委屈今天！ [今天] 是很无辜的！！ XD

每一天都是新的开始，新的开始就是应该美美的~

[听了没有？？？？！>W<]

-

其实每年年未大家都去跨年。

然后就跨到情绪很high啊~ 心情很nice啊~ 新年很great啊~

我就忽然觉得 在跨年的那一刻，其实我们也正在在跨月/跨天/跨小时/跨分/跨秒。

换句话说，如果12月跨去1月是那么值得庆祝的，那么1月跨去2月也不是要一样值得庆祝/开心吗~? >w<

不然[1月2月3月4月5月6月7月8月9月10月11月都会有心灵创伤的！]

如果31号跨去1号是那么地兴奋，那么1号跨去2号跨去3号4号5 号6号7号 bla bla bla跨到bla bla bla 都是应该是兴兴奋奋的吗？

为什么偏偏只有在新年跨年那一刻才有genki呢~

所以说，心态很重要！

-

[如果音乐完了请重播！ XD]

别说因为人生很长，只有那个宝贵的新年才值得跨一跨，那么我就会对你说 [去你妈的。]

谁知道你的人生会有多长？

人生有多少个10年，每年才跨一次，high那么一次哪里够呐？

所以，在我们有生之年，跨一跨，有什么就跨什么，每一分每一秒都很值得跨的好不好！><

Ps. 不但止对心理好，跨跨下，可能可以练出一字马叻！ XD

亲爱的大家，我要去做功课了 [很忽然 xD]。

祝大家2月26号，9.53am快乐 =)

星期天快乐 <3

新的一天，要美美哦！

ps. 昨晚我还是个脸苦苦臭臭的伤心小孩，睡醒我又那么开心了。

情绪真复杂，心态真神奇，人生真美好~

pps. 为什么硬要你听那首歌？

因为很有ohm啊！

很多人听了都很想去拯救世界， [我也是一个 XD]，很有fu 有木有 有木有！！ XD

copied from jia lin~ ^^

每次心情不好的时候, 总是会到处click, 希望读到些励志+让心情好起来的作品~

原本糟糕的心情, 也睡不下去, 看了看她的blog...笑了~~

哈哈~~ 好可爱啊~~~ 有ohm了现在^^

她说得没错, 伤心事，每个人都会遇见的； 怎样面对，才是重点。

只是不知道为什么, 遇到问题时, 多次想尝试自己学习默默地面对~

但还是忍不住地诉了诉苦, 说出来比较舒服~~

也许, 往好的方面想的话, 很多问题 都不是问题...=)

其实, 我们真的比很多人都幸运了~

累了? 休息一下再加油加油呗~~!!

开工了~~
觉得呆在家里太无聊~~
做了三天, 累垮了~~

答应一直做到六月,
可是, 我好想放弃了~~
><

吃饭时间才半个钟...
我吃东西又那么慢~~
我无法想象我还要呆在那里...
数数....60天？90 天?

我爸: ' worth it? '
我只是想去学学东西,
真的很不想像上次那一样...

我已经很累...
我需要的...只是支持...安慰...
当你说那些时, 你知道我有多难受吗?

说真的, 我不知道自己还能坚持多久~
T.T

Happy cny @@

成绩出炉啦~ 有人欢喜有人忧~
昨天摆乌龙以为准准12点...
原来是UK time...
早上八点...自动爬起床了...

说真的, 虽然没抱着太大的希望..
我还是希望说, 会有奇迹的出现...
但是, 呵呵...这是现实~~
第二次就log in 进去了...
看了成绩...笑不出来~~

一个只差一分就另一个grade了, 另一个差两分...
这样讲好像是在为自己找借口...
成绩就是已成定局, 想要哭想要撞墙,
它也不会可怜你, 为你加几分~~
自己放了多少努力, 就耕出怎么样的收获...

接受接受~~
大年初一要开开心心啊!!!
好勉强喔~ =(

cheer up cheer up!!!

grr~~

Hmm..I feel like there is something wrong with my teeth or jaw, so i went to see a dentist..
He told me that I need to wear braces~
Price> rm 6000~ O.O

After that i started calling around to ask about details.
They said only rm 4k ++...okay not 'only'...'k' is a lot...=(
Government's one is obviously cheaper...but dunno have to wait for how many years..
I am not young any more...well, still young...just not that young...
so....I am having problem in making decision AGAIN~

I told my dad about it...
He said this is not a big deal...
Not a big deal>> not the money, is me wearing braces..
what he means is i won't die without braces..
and this is the profit thing..
At first I was unhappy, like why he has to disagree with me every time?

I went online to check...google...
Actually I dunno what I wanna search...just simply...
Then, I went to my cousin's house...
She had her braces removed not long ago and she suggested me not to wear braces..
It's because you will have a few of your teeth removed so there will be gaps...
And the teeth will not be that strong anymore..

Advices from professional, friends, dad, cousin...
I dunno who to listen to....=(
I hate to make decision, I am noob in making decision~
God, can u tell me what to do? Tell me in dreams tonight will u? ><

Back from cousin's house, touched when dad said ah gong is willing to sponsor me the money..
Appreciate that a lot but I am not gonna take it...
Although dad did not agree with me, he still thought about it and talked about it..
thank them in my heart~ =)

problem not solved yet.....ish

HaPpy 2012!!

新一年了啦!!!
HaPpy 2012!!!!
二字头了~ 接受不到也要接受~
反正, 年龄只是一个数字~ ^^'

30/12/11 去了大嘴叭~
搭lift时很有 '千与千寻' feel~
neh 就是小千去找汤婆婆那一幕~ XD
唱到爽爽~~ haha~~

31/12, DESA PARK CITY
第一次去, 原来还蛮多人的~
很多好可爱的狗狗哦~~
yummy steamboat~~~ =)
买了spray~
可是没有对象~ 很少人拿spray~
我们也不太好意思喷~
只是经过一群人, spray一下, 然后跑掉~ ^^
放孔明灯, 没有想象的那么容易~
然后, 要找人真的很难~

1/1/2012 去1u shopping~
想到去年的今天也是在这里, 不小心撞到表姐的车~
我表哥因为要去join朋友, 想说让我来驾，
姑姑却说, '不要啦~ 今天一月一号啊~ '
>< ><
吃了salmon roll~~
每次吃salmon都有种幸福的感觉~~~ =)

这几天都发怪怪的梦~ O.O

继续...
新一年啦!!!!! XD
希望新一年事事顺利, 心想事成~~
a brand new year a brand new goh yee wen~ someone said 1~ =p
加油加油加油!! =)