可曾试过，什么都不想做?
只想静静地，就静静地坐着，闭上双眼......
让思绪回荡，再回荡....
尤其是在佳节期间，更是容易这样子。
读读一下，忽然发觉自己已经在发呆的状态。
生活有很多事情都是很难解释的。
就好像我不懂为什么阿公冲凉要冲上一个小时。
这时，正是尿急人士该将耐心派上用场的时候。
不管多么不想要做，我还是得这样做。
因为，没尽一百分努力的后果，不是一般的难受。
不能想象一天没有音乐的日子。
它，让情绪起伏。
它，能勾起记忆。
它，会让嘴角不自觉地往上挂 。
它，陪伴过多少个失眠的夜晚。
它，也让学习有了它更添乐趣。
二十岁的世代，是个怎么样的样子?
只知道，不能再任性。
也是个学习承担责任的年纪。
从被照顾到学习照顾，
从被劝告到学习安慰，
从爱逃避到学习面对。
告诉自己，自己已经拥有了很多很多。
就该像杰伦所说的，
努力过生活，知足最快乐。
最后，圣诞节快乐!!
Tuesday, December 25, 2012
Monday, December 17, 2012
Love
Time is passing so rapidly, mercilessly, leaving signs on the face of our loved ones. During weekdays I would be away from home and only come back during weekends. That is the moment I look forward to. Every time I look at them after a week, they look more tired and more wrinkles are running over their face. I do not know how to describe my feeling, just plain heart-ache.
Firstly, my lovely Dad. I understand his stress, his worries, his tiredness. Not only he needs to work outside, he also do everything himself when he is home. He said, everything and everyone is dependent on him. He seldom complains and I really hope to help. However, my help is always in vain as I am not alert enough to do what is supposed to do. Meanwhile, I did blamed when any of them in the family did not contribute and left everything to him. Anyway, this is called life. When you care too much, you get more tired.
And then my ah ma. She is much skinnier and also weaker now. Even walking can cause her running out of breath. I feel so sorry when I did not give much assistance. I am sorry when I did not wait for her to finish her sentences patiently. I am sorry when I turned away while she was being negative. I am sorry for being rude to her. I am sorry for not bringing her out often because I thought she was troubling me. I am sorry I am sorry. Recently, she keeps saying she has insomnia at night and had dreams about the deceased. She also said she has not much time left. Often time I tried to ignore yet couldn't help but feel sad at the thought of it. I assured her that she is healthy and she will not leave!
I really hope that I will always appreciate everything and everyone around me. I LOVE THEM.
Firstly, my lovely Dad. I understand his stress, his worries, his tiredness. Not only he needs to work outside, he also do everything himself when he is home. He said, everything and everyone is dependent on him. He seldom complains and I really hope to help. However, my help is always in vain as I am not alert enough to do what is supposed to do. Meanwhile, I did blamed when any of them in the family did not contribute and left everything to him. Anyway, this is called life. When you care too much, you get more tired.
And then my ah ma. She is much skinnier and also weaker now. Even walking can cause her running out of breath. I feel so sorry when I did not give much assistance. I am sorry when I did not wait for her to finish her sentences patiently. I am sorry when I turned away while she was being negative. I am sorry for being rude to her. I am sorry for not bringing her out often because I thought she was troubling me. I am sorry I am sorry. Recently, she keeps saying she has insomnia at night and had dreams about the deceased. She also said she has not much time left. Often time I tried to ignore yet couldn't help but feel sad at the thought of it. I assured her that she is healthy and she will not leave!
I really hope that I will always appreciate everything and everyone around me. I LOVE THEM.
Thursday, December 13, 2012
Malaysian driver?
After the class finished, I went straight out from the lecture hall, to the lift, down the floors, towards my car. I walked and smiled a little when I saw my car. As I was approaching, I noticed something. Some obvious scratches on the side of my car! Red colour paint can be seen! Damn you red car driver, was all I thought. I was hoping it was not some deep scratches. Too bad, it was!
Sigh, I shouldn't have park down here. Why think that they will avoid your car when some drivers are just idiots on the road? It's my fault for parking beside the narrow road. I will never ever ever ever park there again. Mood was affected. On the way back home, my mind was all on whether the scratches can be polished and then removed. Too bad again, polish couldn't help as the scratches are too deep.
I feel like cursing the stupid driver. It seems like I am being a little overdramatic.Sigh. And then I thought of how I scratched my neighbour's car two years ago when I first got my P license. The car alarm rang and the green paint left on it. Everyone would know it was whose 'good job' as there was only one bright green car on that street. Because I was on the rush that day, I just raised my hand to my forehead which signalling 'sorry' and drove away. Although I went to apologize to uncle on the other day, now only I understand that feeling. I really appreciated his forgiveness. Maybe I should do the same thing. Good deeds can cause an impact to the other person and without knowing it becomes a cycle which passes around. The only difference is I don't know who the stupid driver is.
Phew I feel much better after pouring everything out. I guess I got to get some rest first and then fight tomorrow! Don't get me wrong. I am not going to search that person out. Just, fight for the test! Go Go Yee Wen!
Sigh, I shouldn't have park down here. Why think that they will avoid your car when some drivers are just idiots on the road? It's my fault for parking beside the narrow road. I will never ever ever ever park there again. Mood was affected. On the way back home, my mind was all on whether the scratches can be polished and then removed. Too bad again, polish couldn't help as the scratches are too deep.
I feel like cursing the stupid driver. It seems like I am being a little overdramatic.Sigh. And then I thought of how I scratched my neighbour's car two years ago when I first got my P license. The car alarm rang and the green paint left on it. Everyone would know it was whose 'good job' as there was only one bright green car on that street. Because I was on the rush that day, I just raised my hand to my forehead which signalling 'sorry' and drove away. Although I went to apologize to uncle on the other day, now only I understand that feeling. I really appreciated his forgiveness. Maybe I should do the same thing. Good deeds can cause an impact to the other person and without knowing it becomes a cycle which passes around. The only difference is I don't know who the stupid driver is.
Phew I feel much better after pouring everything out. I guess I got to get some rest first and then fight tomorrow! Don't get me wrong. I am not going to search that person out. Just, fight for the test! Go Go Yee Wen!
Monday, December 10, 2012
Le bread
Today is Monday. I woke up early so that I wouldn't be stuck in the jam which eventually cause unnecessary frustration. The exam was over and one more left. Not the end yet as more are coming.
Talking about yesterday, I followed my Dad to Mid Valley to buy cake for my grandpa. We went there because he said that the cake there look nice. Actually that was fruit tart and Dad didn't know about it. Luckily there was still a whole, complete tart and we bought it. The main thing I want to talk about is, I actually bought a bread cost RM9.80. Dad didn't realized it was that expensive until it was paid. The bread is almost as hard as a rock. I had a bite this morning, and it is just some normal, tasteless flour. A bread cost RM9.80, only a not-so-smart person will buy it I guess? Filled with regret, I asked my friends to try and give comments. Some of them said not bad and quite nice. At least that made me feel better. Until I went home and let my aunt to try. She said that she would consider even if it is a RM0.98 bread. T.T
What bother me is not only the money spent, but also the stupidity shown. Why I bought it? Because I saw the tag 'walnut and cheese' written, I thought it must be some cheesy yummy incredibly delicious bread with that kind of price. Who knows that 'good-looking' thing only has the appearance and no content? I should have thought of a bread is not worth that much. Now I am having an issue with a BREAD. I feel heart-ache, what more the one who paid for it. I know that at that moment, if I was using my own hard-earned money, I wouldn't even look at it. I feel sorry for my Dad. I promise myself that I will think twice before buying anything in the future.
We had a dinner celebration. After a nice meal, we ate the tart bought while having some nice chit-chat. We talked about the 'Gangnam style' played outside, the married couple to the trip we had 2 years ago.That was the first time we saw snow and we were excited every time the topic was raised. Sweet memories are something money can't buy and they will be with you forever. I am glad that we have them and will continue to make more.
Talking about yesterday, I followed my Dad to Mid Valley to buy cake for my grandpa. We went there because he said that the cake there look nice. Actually that was fruit tart and Dad didn't know about it. Luckily there was still a whole, complete tart and we bought it. The main thing I want to talk about is, I actually bought a bread cost RM9.80. Dad didn't realized it was that expensive until it was paid. The bread is almost as hard as a rock. I had a bite this morning, and it is just some normal, tasteless flour. A bread cost RM9.80, only a not-so-smart person will buy it I guess? Filled with regret, I asked my friends to try and give comments. Some of them said not bad and quite nice. At least that made me feel better. Until I went home and let my aunt to try. She said that she would consider even if it is a RM0.98 bread. T.T
What bother me is not only the money spent, but also the stupidity shown. Why I bought it? Because I saw the tag 'walnut and cheese' written, I thought it must be some cheesy yummy incredibly delicious bread with that kind of price. Who knows that 'good-looking' thing only has the appearance and no content? I should have thought of a bread is not worth that much. Now I am having an issue with a BREAD. I feel heart-ache, what more the one who paid for it. I know that at that moment, if I was using my own hard-earned money, I wouldn't even look at it. I feel sorry for my Dad. I promise myself that I will think twice before buying anything in the future.
We had a dinner celebration. After a nice meal, we ate the tart bought while having some nice chit-chat. We talked about the 'Gangnam style' played outside, the married couple to the trip we had 2 years ago.That was the first time we saw snow and we were excited every time the topic was raised. Sweet memories are something money can't buy and they will be with you forever. I am glad that we have them and will continue to make more.
Sunday, December 2, 2012
下輩子，無論愛與不愛，都不會再見
~下輩子，無論愛與不愛，都不會再見~
我兒：寫這備忘錄給你，基於三個原則：
一、人生福禍無常，誰也不知可以活多久，
我兒：寫這備忘錄給你，基於三個原則：
一、人生福禍無常，誰也不知可以活多久，
有些事情還是早一點說好。
二、我是你的父親，我不跟你說，沒有人會跟你說。
三、這備忘錄記載的，
都是我經過慘痛失敗得回來的體驗，
可以為你的成長省回不少冤枉路。
以下，便是你在人生中要好好記住的事：
對你不好的人，你不要太介懷，
在你一生中，沒有人有義務要對你好，
除了我和你媽媽。
至於那些對你好的人，你除了要珍惜、感恩外，
也請多防備一點，因為，每個人做每件事，
總有一個原因，
他對你好，未必真的是因為喜歡你，
請你必須搞清楚，而不必太快將對方看作真朋友。
沒有人是不可代替的，沒有東西是必須擁有的。
看透了這一點，將來你身邊的人不再要你，
或許失去了世間上最愛的一切時也應該明白，
這並不是什麼大不了的事。
生命是短暫的，今日你還在浪費著生命，
明日會發覺生命已遠離你了。
因此，愈早珍惜生命，你享受生命的日子也愈多，
與其盼望長壽，倒不如早點享受。
世界上並沒有最愛這回事，
愛情只是一種霎時的感覺，
而這感覺絕對會隨時日、心境而改變。
如果你的所謂最愛離開你，請耐心地等候一下，
讓時日慢慢沖洗，讓心靈慢慢沉澱，
你的苦就會慢慢淡化。
不要過分憧憬愛情的美，不要過分誇大失戀的悲。
雖然很多有成就的人士並沒有受過很多教育，
但並不等於不用功讀書，就一定可以成功。
你學到的知識，就是你擁有的武器。
可以白手興家，但不可以手無寸鐵，謹記！
我不會要求你供養我下半輩子，
同樣地我也不會供養你的下半輩子。
當你長大到可以獨立的時候，我的責任已經完結。
以後，你要坐巴士還是 Benz（賓士），
吃魚翅還是粉絲，都要自己負責。
你可以要求自己守信，但不能要求別人守信。
你可以要求自己對人好，但不能期待人家對你好。
你怎樣對人，並不代表人家就會怎樣對你。
如果看不透這一點，你只會徒添不必要的煩惱。
人要發達，還是要努力工作才可以，
世界上並沒有免費午餐。
親人只有一次的緣分，
無論這輩子我和你會相處多久，
也請好好珍惜共聚的時光。
下輩子，無論愛與不愛，都不會再見。
父母要孝養，身體要保養，
飲食要營養，講話要涵養。
子女要教養，生病要調養，
感情要培養，做人要修養。
二、我是你的父親，我不跟你說，沒有人會跟你說。
三、這備忘錄記載的，
都是我經過慘痛失敗得回來的體驗，
可以為你的成長省回不少冤枉路。
以下，便是你在人生中要好好記住的事：
對你不好的人，你不要太介懷，
在你一生中，沒有人有義務要對你好，
除了我和你媽媽。
至於那些對你好的人，你除了要珍惜、感恩外，
也請多防備一點，因為，每個人做每件事，
總有一個原因，
他對你好，未必真的是因為喜歡你，
請你必須搞清楚，而不必太快將對方看作真朋友。
沒有人是不可代替的，沒有東西是必須擁有的。
看透了這一點，將來你身邊的人不再要你，
或許失去了世間上最愛的一切時也應該明白，
這並不是什麼大不了的事。
生命是短暫的，今日你還在浪費著生命，
明日會發覺生命已遠離你了。
因此，愈早珍惜生命，你享受生命的日子也愈多，
與其盼望長壽，倒不如早點享受。
世界上並沒有最愛這回事，
愛情只是一種霎時的感覺，
而這感覺絕對會隨時日、心境而改變。
如果你的所謂最愛離開你，請耐心地等候一下，
讓時日慢慢沖洗，讓心靈慢慢沉澱，
你的苦就會慢慢淡化。
不要過分憧憬愛情的美，不要過分誇大失戀的悲。
雖然很多有成就的人士並沒有受過很多教育，
但並不等於不用功讀書，就一定可以成功。
你學到的知識，就是你擁有的武器。
可以白手興家，但不可以手無寸鐵，謹記！
我不會要求你供養我下半輩子，
同樣地我也不會供養你的下半輩子。
當你長大到可以獨立的時候，我的責任已經完結。
以後，你要坐巴士還是 Benz（賓士），
吃魚翅還是粉絲，都要自己負責。
你可以要求自己守信，但不能要求別人守信。
你可以要求自己對人好，但不能期待人家對你好。
你怎樣對人，並不代表人家就會怎樣對你。
如果看不透這一點，你只會徒添不必要的煩惱。
人要發達，還是要努力工作才可以，
世界上並沒有免費午餐。
親人只有一次的緣分，
無論這輩子我和你會相處多久，
也請好好珍惜共聚的時光。
下輩子，無論愛與不愛，都不會再見。
本文摘錄自~香港著名DJ~梁繼章先生~給兒子的信
父母要孝養，身體要保養，
飲食要營養，講話要涵養。
子女要教養，生病要調養，
感情要培養，做人要修養。
Thursday, October 18, 2012
迷路的一天
此时此刻，我一定要把现在的心情写出来，不然会憋闷。一大早起床，我太高估马来西亚的交通状况了。平时十五分钟的路程，我半个小时前出门，真是太天真了。最重要的是，我是去考试的哦。喔，尽入眼帘的，不用多说，也知道。
不停地告诉自己，别紧张，没关系的，快到了。很悠哉地驾着驾着，越来越觉得不对劲，怎么还没到?原来，我....迷路了。已经到了吉隆坡市中心，立刻打电话问路。‘你现在在哪里?' 我真的不知道！！ 那就要回去 Jalan Kuching 再走过了。告诉自己，要冷静!突然想到是在PWTC对面，跟着路牌走，终于！啊!!到了，门关了。只好绕 No entry 的路去后门。
还被那边的人酸，说迟到了在校园honk.不管了，去找地点。
匆匆忙忙....
考speaking. 中间突然顿了很久，因为想不到points了。唉....挫败感...
终于考完了。当我还在为自己找到路暗自欢呼时，回家的路上我又....走错路了。 我爸明明说那条路很容易走，直直走就会到了。哦，我就’直直走‘咯。忽然之间来到了round about, 哪一条? 左转，又到了可恨的KL.
又走回刚刚的路，这次选择直走，该不会又走错吧?
这条是可以回到家，但好像走远了。还剩下最后一条路没走，也许是最靠近的也说不定。
或许，走错路不完全是坏事。走错了路，就会知道，这不对，接下来，就会走对啦。
有些事情，不能完全靠别人。就像那个’直直走‘，自己没去走，怎么知道，它是那么地直吗？
那条路对别人来说，可能很好走，但不一定适合自己。走过，走错，再走过，才懂。很多事情都必须要靠自己去经历。错了，也学会了。
下次，有长辈再说 '我吃盐多过你吃米' 的时候，我也可以理直气壮地说 '我迷路多过你吃番薯'.
=)
不停地告诉自己，别紧张，没关系的，快到了。很悠哉地驾着驾着，越来越觉得不对劲，怎么还没到?原来，我....迷路了。已经到了吉隆坡市中心，立刻打电话问路。‘你现在在哪里?' 我真的不知道！！ 那就要回去 Jalan Kuching 再走过了。告诉自己，要冷静!突然想到是在PWTC对面，跟着路牌走，终于！啊!!到了，门关了。只好绕 No entry 的路去后门。
还被那边的人酸，说迟到了在校园honk.不管了，去找地点。
匆匆忙忙....
考speaking. 中间突然顿了很久，因为想不到points了。唉....挫败感...
终于考完了。当我还在为自己找到路暗自欢呼时，回家的路上我又....走错路了。 我爸明明说那条路很容易走，直直走就会到了。哦，我就’直直走‘咯。忽然之间来到了round about, 哪一条? 左转，又到了可恨的KL.
又走回刚刚的路，这次选择直走，该不会又走错吧?
这条是可以回到家，但好像走远了。还剩下最后一条路没走，也许是最靠近的也说不定。
或许，走错路不完全是坏事。走错了路，就会知道，这不对，接下来，就会走对啦。
有些事情，不能完全靠别人。就像那个’直直走‘，自己没去走，怎么知道，它是那么地直吗？
那条路对别人来说，可能很好走，但不一定适合自己。走过，走错，再走过，才懂。很多事情都必须要靠自己去经历。错了，也学会了。
下次，有长辈再说 '我吃盐多过你吃米' 的时候，我也可以理直气壮地说 '我迷路多过你吃番薯'.
=)
Friday, October 5, 2012
Having insomnia in the middle of the night makes us feel so helpless.
With only few hours of sleep, I actually woke up before the alarm rang.
Yes the brain never rest. To class, with my eyes on the lecturer and my mind wandered.
Today is Friday man! Today should be the day for me to go home!
However, the Saturday is occupied. One rest day is not enough!
Maybe I am already used to the relax way of passing time during the past few months, I find it really tiring coming back home after sunset.
Need time to adjust the life style.
And, I need to be tougher.
Go Go Yee Wen!
With only few hours of sleep, I actually woke up before the alarm rang.
Yes the brain never rest. To class, with my eyes on the lecturer and my mind wandered.
Today is Friday man! Today should be the day for me to go home!
However, the Saturday is occupied. One rest day is not enough!
Maybe I am already used to the relax way of passing time during the past few months, I find it really tiring coming back home after sunset.
Need time to adjust the life style.
And, I need to be tougher.
Go Go Yee Wen!
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