思谱

长假后的工作天,

格外的不露.

今天突然间心血来潮,

想找一个地方,

把脑袋里乱七八糟, 胡思乱想的东东, 寄放一下下

想一想,

自己好像有一个部落格.

看一看,

继上一次更新, 已是三年前的事.

时间啊...都去哪儿了呀...

三年的时间,有多少东西改变了?

自己到底成长了多少?

毕业已有一年, 踏入社会也有半年之久.

到底, 学习了什么? 收获了什么?

另外, 失去了什么? 放弃了什么?

常常会有人问,

‘你的梦想是什么? 你想要过怎样的人生?’

能回答出来的人, 我就觉得好了不起.

是不是, 毕业, 工作, 结婚, 生子, 退休,老去...

是不是, 在一定的年龄, 就应该做着某样事情, 领着一定的薪资...

有经验的人, 都好心相劝,

就好比给了一个完整的食谱,

应该要有怎样怎样的食材,

准备妥当以后, 便是一步一步的指示.

只要好好地跟着, 就可以做出一道美味佳肴.

这样, 少了跌跌撞撞, 免了时间和食材的浪费.

该有多好?

可是, 想一想,

自己拥有全部的食材吗?

跟得上那些步骤吗?

这道菜和自己胃口吗?

如果和, 为什么还不动手去做?

如果不和, 为什么不想办法去研究或开发新食谱呢?

只是一味地高谈阔论, 总有一天, 会饿死吧...

好了, 发泄完毕,

该面壁思谱了.

I care

It was time for appointments with the doctors again. Fortunately, I was free and the day was spent in the hospital. A lot of emotions felt and seen. You see beds surrounded by nervous family members, as if getting nearer to their sick loved ones can increase the recovery speed or some sort. You can also see beds without anyone around, leaving the already pitiful-looking patients look more fragile and lonely.

I got a mini heart attack this morning when I realized my grandmum fall down in the toilet because she was too weak to support herself in the toilet due to the fasting. Thank god no where else hurt except for some wounds on her leg. Falling can cause really serious consequences, especially on the elderly. Although she kept assuring me that she will be careful and she knows how to take care of herself, the worries are not going to go away that easily. If everything is that easy and predictable, there will be no existence of 'accident'. What can I do? Pray hard.

While waiting for the endoscopy procedure, ah ma was complaining about being hungry. She was not allowed to eat or drink since 12 o'clock midnight and the dinner yesterday was so light that I think it would not even fill my mouth, not to mention the stomach. It was almost 12 in the afternoon. I kept walking up and down searching for doctors and nurses to remind them that someone old was in the state of thirst and hunger. They provided explanation patiently, though no immediate actions taken. I was told that many else were in a more severe condition. Perhaps I was not understanding enough, I think that we should not let an old, weak, hungry and thirsty patient to wait for too long.

Wait and wait and wait. Finally it was my ah ma's turn. Looking at the colon showed on the screen, I prayed that everything would be alright. After the procedure, it was already 3 o'clock in the afternoon. I who had a full bowl of meehoon in the morning already felt the stomach growling. When asked when can my ah ma had her food, the nurses replied that the people from respective wards were supposed to take her back. So, 'on the way' was the answer. After another half an hour, I can wait no more. There I went back to the ward, bugging one of the nurses. In my opinion, they were quite helpful and considerate. Nevertheless, their speed and responsiveness in doing things may let more patients endure the suffering longer. They can be more efficient and effective. Otherwise, it is all okay.

So, there was another round of waiting. It was okay for both me and ah ma by then as she already had her stomach filled. While eavesdropping on a conversation between a filial son and his mum who suffers a stroke, I fall asleep rather quickly after the long day of running around. When it was time to go home, ah ma was really happy, so was I. Hope I did not leave an impression of being noisy, nasty or disturbing, though I think I did.

At times, I feel tired when I need to bring ah gong and ah ma for different appointments, especially when the dates are close to each other. In general hospital, a minimum of 4 hours waiting time awaiting us, besides the trouble of looking for parking space. Therefore, my dad would be the target for me to vent my frustration. His reply is always able to soothe me and make the whole thing easier to go through. There was no difference that time. ' You should be grateful to have the privilege to serve the elderly, your grandparents, because not everybody gets the chance.' This will stay in me forever as a reminder, to serve with patience, care and love.

=)

I realized the existence of my blog when randomly been asked about the blogspot link.
This place has long been abandoned, due to...?

As time goes by, writing has becoming more and more like a stranger. The habit of putting things into words is replaced by many other more important events in life. Perhaps it's me being more lazy, or I chose to record things in memories.

We have come to a point where we need to figure out what we are going to do in the near future. Questions still raised, directions still blurred. I don't want to disappoint loved ones, and I want to do my best. No matter how things change along the way, I believe everything happens for a reason, and not just by chance. We fall, we cry, we stand up, we move on. We become stronger after every setbacks that are valuable.

I am loving whatever I am doing, though I was lost in the beginning. The picture is getting clearer and I am going to embrace whatever that may come my way.

It's Friday

Now I'm on my third week of holidays, sitting comfortably in front of the computer. I can hear birds chirping, and also the typing sound of the keyboard. It is this quiet. And I shall let my brain run a little.

I have no idea how my days were spent for the past few weeks. The time just passed. Nothing much is done in a day and without realising it's time to sleep. Although the days are repetitive, I still enjoy them a lot. I can spend time cooking, reading, sleeping and many many more.

While I was enjoying myself, I noticed how busy my dad is. He is with his phone most of the time. Cigarette lit every now and then. I look at him burning his own life away and I can't do anything. Stress causes the desire for more nicotine. More nicotine increases dependency on nicotine. The worst thing was, I was sitting in front of the tv in the living room like a zombie, staring blankly at the tv screen. Other than 'Daddy, don't smoke so much la', what else can I do? I feel so helpless. Whenever I told him that, he would say that why should he stop something he likes. Forget about the ridiculous 'theory' he made up last time -'Nicotine covers the lungs and protects them from infections'? Gawd! He always tells us that he knows what are best for us. Why didn't he do it for himself? From a source I read somewhere, smoking can reduce 14 years of life. I couldn't bear the thought of that. So, apart from saying 'Oh you should not do this', is there any other effective ways to advice smokers? I don't want to hear more 'You ask the government to stop selling cigarettes la'.

Yesterday I saw dad rushing towards the door and I asked a stupid question. 'Eh going out ar?' Actually, this is one of the ways to initiate a conversation and to show concern towards the others. His reply, 'Yea. Life is not as easy as you think.'. I remember every words by heart because that sentence made me feel so guilty. Am I not doing enough? Am I not doing my best? My heart looked at the brain, nodded.

There are so many phrases about life. Life is blah blah blah. Whatever it is, life goes on. We have to learn to accept and cherish every moment we have.

舍不得

哇哇~今天是 Sem 2 的最后一天了。多快啊~~!
PBL, Food Culture Day 都结束了，可以小歇一下，充电充电。
刚刚冲咖啡的时候不小心割到手，血哗啦哗啦地流（夸张手法)。
因为Lecturers在，也不方便停下来，便一边流，一边冲。
之后就好像孩子般，每碰到一个人就说，我的手受伤了。=P
现在用滑鼠的时候有点‘手充血’的感觉。
但，我坚持写下去...che...

有短短几天的study break,得好好利用啊~~
可是，总是有其它事情会干扰。
比如说，好不容易坐下来读书的时候，突然又觉得想要打扫。
借口多多~~真是的~~

搬来跟外婆住也快一年了。
从刚开始的不熟悉，到现在舒服的相处。。
好爱她煮的每一道菜肴!喜欢和她一起谈国家大事（批评怒骂的成分占多数)
从以前每个星期都盼着周末能回家，到现在想多待一下。
如今，她快去别处帮忙照顾舅母和孩子，我不停地问，
几时去啊？又几时回来呢？
可是，去是铁定的了，回竟然还不知道。
还是会问，希望她突然说，哦，没去了。但，不是那样 =（
舍不得舍不得。
最近出门前，看着正在洗衣的外婆，我多看了几眼，看多了数秒，记住了。
有她在，会觉得比较安心跟踏实。
就算她没在身边，还是可以翻一翻记忆里的相簿，至少会感觉到温暖。

刚刚跟外婆的对话。。。

我 ：‘最近忙到傻掉料，终于可以休息一下。’
外婆 ： ‘你不是一直都在休息咩?'

我哪有!!(又好像有..@@)

结论: 我会好想念外婆 =')

=)

‘光阴似箭，转眼间，又过了。。。’
很常见的小学作文开场白。
但是，到现在，我仍然那么觉得！想必很多人都有同感吧~

暂时把笔记放一边，跑到部落格来偷懒。
离开的一个星期，是另一个创造美丽回忆的良机，
所以，无论怎样，我还是会选择，去旅行。
原本想说待不再那么忙的时候再来更新，可是怕忘了细节。
况且，‘不再那么忙的时候’还在一个角落躲着，等着我去把它给搜出来。

滴答滴答，时间，毫不留情地溜走。。
但还好，记忆它， 不会 =）

出国前，把功课交代好后，把剩下的 'Sign attendance' 的重任交给朋友。
刚开始非常焦虑，要是签不到那怎样？
之后就觉得，顺其自然吧，想太多‘如果’也无济于事，毕竟，我控制不到未来。
相信了她们，很高兴回来听到的是好消息。

这一次，不是去什么美得像世外桃源的国度，而是较没那么先进的地方---越南+柬埔寨。
有点不明为什么爹地要去那里，还是跟去了。
那里的天气跟马来西亚差不多，时差也只是一个小时。
Ho chi minh > Siem Reap > Ha Long Bay > Hanoi.
难免会有比较，顿时会觉得，哦，其实马来西亚算不错了。
由于是跟团去的，会有来自不同地方的人聚在一起。
在那短短的一个星期，一起活动，一起行走。
在最后一天的时候，说了再见，就真的见不到了。
呵呵，所以，有种很妙的感觉，感觉像作了一个梦，梦醒来，又在自己的被窝里了。
又回到了每一天一成不变的日常生活，忙啊忙。

难怪，会有人视旅行为兴趣，抑或是，有生之年要完成的梦想。
因为，它打开视野，会让人有不同的想法，不同的感触。

一、學會 沉默
有時候，你被人誤解，你不想爭辯，所以選擇沉默。本來就不是所有的人都得了解你，因此你認為不必對全世界喊話。卻也有時候，你被最愛的人誤解，你難過到不想爭辯，也只有選擇沉默。全世界都可以不懂你，但他應該懂，若他竟然不能懂，還有什麼話可說?生命中往往有連舒伯特都無言以對的時刻，畢竟不是所有的是非都能條列清楚，甚至可能根本沒有真正的是與非。那麼，不想說話，就不說吧，在多說無益的時候，也許沉默就是最好的解釋。

二、至少 平靜
在你跌入人生谷底的時候，你身旁所有的人都告訴你：要堅強，而且要快樂。堅強是絕對需要的，但是快樂?在這種情形下，恐怕是太為難你了。畢竟，誰能在跌得頭破血流的時候還覺得高興？但是至少可以做到平靜。平靜地看待這件事，平靜地把其他該處理的事處理好。平靜，沒有快樂，也沒有不快樂。
　　
三、學會彎腰 這會是我意外的收獲！
和別人發生意見上的紛歧，甚造成言語上的衝突，所以你悶悶不樂，因為你覺得都是別人惡意。別再耿耿於懷了，回家去擦地板吧。拎一塊抹布，彎下腰，雙膝著地，把你面前這張地板的每個角落來回擦拭干淨。然後重新省思自己在那場衝突，所說過的每一句話。現在，你發現自己其實也有不對的地方了，是不是?你漸漸心平氣和了，是不是?有時候你必須學習彎腰，因為這個動作可以讓你謙卑。勞動身體的同時，你也擦亮了自己的心緒。而且，你還擁有了一張光潔的地板呢。這是你的第二個收獲。

四、不要想 如果 當初
你說，人生是一條有無限多岔口的長路，永遠在不停地做選擇。如果只是選擇吃炒面或炒飯，影響似乎不大，但選擇讀什麼科系、做什麼工作、結婚或不結婚、要不要有孩子，每一個選擇都影響深遠，而不同的選擇也必定造就完全不一樣的人生。你又說，生命中不可承受之情，就在於人生沒有重來的機會啊。如果當初如何如何，現在就不會怎樣怎樣…這種充滿悵然的喃喃自語，還是別再多說了吧。每一個岔口的選擇其實沒有真正的好與壞，只要把人生看成是自己。獨一無二的創作，就不會頻頻回首如果當初做了不一樣的選擇。
　　
五、努力吧！不管成功與否 至少曾經美麗
漫步林間，你看見一株藤蔓附著樹干，柔軟與堅實相互交纏，你感動於這靜美的一幕。讓幸福與歸屬就此駐足吧。你想。不知未來會有怎樣一番風雨摧折？也許藤將斷、樹會倒，也許天會荒，地將老。你又想。那麼，請時光停格在此刻吧。停格即是永恆。永恆裡若有這靜美的一刻，未來可能遭遇的種種劫難，便已得到了安慰與報償。

六、保持單純
因為思慮過多，所以你常常把你的人生復雜化了。明明是活在現在，你卻總是念念不忘著過去，又憂心忡忡著未來；堅持攜帶著過去、未來與現在同行，你的人生當然只有一片拖泥帶水。而單純是一種恩寵狀態。單純地以皮膚感受天氣的變化，單純地以鼻腔品嘗雨後的青草香，單純地以眼睛統攝遠山近景如一幅畫。單純地活在當下。而當下其實無所謂是非真假。既然沒有是非，就不必思慮；沒有真假，就無須念念不忘又憂心忡忡。無是非真假，不就像在做夢一樣了嗎?是呀，就單純地把你的人生當成夢境去執行吧。
　　
七、偶爾’俗氣’…
吃多了健康食品，偶爾你也想啃一啃鴨舌頭和鹽酥雞。看多了大師名劇，偶爾你也想瞄一瞄耳光摔不完眼淚掉不完的連續劇。聽多了古典音樂，偶爾你也想唱一唱愛他一百年又恨他一萬年的流行歌曲。你知道健康食品對健胃整腸有意義，大師名劇對培養氣質有意義，古典音樂對提升性靈有意義，可是，偶爾你其實並不想讓自己時時刻刻活得那麼有意。人生不需要把自己綁得那麼緊。偶爾的小小放縱，是道德的。靈氣充滿或許接近大人，但偶爾的俗氣會更平易近人。

八、控制情緒 別浪費了~
今天的你，是不開心的你，因為有人在言語間刺傷了你。你不喜歡吵架，所以你離開；可是你只是離開了那，卻沒有離開被那人傷害的情境，因此你愈想愈生氣。愈有氣，你就愈沒有力氣去理會別的事情，許多更該用心去做去想去處理的事件，就在你漫天漫地的心煩意亂之中，被輕忽被漠視被省略了。因為，你只是一心一意地在生氣。在情緒上做文章，這是對自己的浪費，而且是很壞的浪費。畢竟，生氣也是要花力氣的，而且生氣一定傷元氣。所以，聰明如你，別讓情緒控制了你，當你又要生氣之前，不妨輕聲地提醒自己一句：“別浪費了。”
　　
九、抓住最好的時機 絕不錯過！
你曾經買了一件很喜歡的衣裳卻舍不得穿，鄭重地供奉在衣櫃裡；許久之後，當你再看見它的時候，卻發現它已經過時了。所以，你就這樣與它錯過了。你也曾經買了一塊漂亮的蛋糕卻舍不得吃，鄭重地供奉在冰箱裡；許久之後，當你再看見它的時候，卻發現它已經過期了。所以，你也這樣與它錯過了。沒有在最喜歡的時候上身的衣裳，沒有在最可口的時候品嘗的蛋糕，就像沒有在最想做的時候去做的事情，都是遺憾。生命也有保存期限，想做的事該趁早去做。如果你只是把你的心願鄭重地供奉在心裡，卻未曾去實行，那麼唯一的結果，就是與它錯過，一如那件過時的衣裳，一如那塊過期的蛋糕。

十、偶爾的出離軌道！
某次你搭火車打算到A地去，中途卻忽然臨時起意在B地下了車。也許是別致的地名吸引了你，也許是偶然一瞥的風景觸動了你，總之，你就這樣改變了本來預定的行程，然後經歷了一場充滿驚奇的意外旅行。A地是你原先的目標，B地卻讓你體會了小小的冒險。回憶起來，你說，那是一次令你難忘的出軌經驗。生命中的許多時候不也如此？心無旁騖地奔赴唯一的目的，不過是履行了原本的行程而已；離開預設的軌道，你才有機會發現其他的風景。
　　
十一、悄悄 悄悄地 回歸平靜..
曾經有一段時間，你心情低落，甚至懶得拉開窗簾，看著窗外的陽光。因此你當然也忘了去看看，窗台上那一盆每天都需要喝水的瑪格麗特。如此不知過了多久，總算有一天，你度過了心情的低潮，同時也想起了你的瑪格麗特。天啊，可憐的花，她還活著嗎？你戰戰兢兢地拉開窗簾，卻見她迎風招搖，花顏可掬。原來在過去的這段日子裡，你雖然忘了喂她喝水，老天卻沒忘了以雨露眷顧她呢。許多事物悄悄地在你的視線之外進行，而且悄悄地安排好了它們自己。天生萬物，天養萬物，一切其實無須擔心……你只要做的就是做好自己，不留任何遺憾…足矣。

问号

心里有好多好多问号。
好需要好需要有人能告诉我答案，告诉我该怎么做。
为什么脑袋能同一时间想那么多东西？
为什么心能够同一时间有那么多说不出来的感觉？
到底什么是对，什么是错？
到底什么该做， 什么不该做？
是世情复杂了，还是心境不净了？

忙，是现实中躲不掉，逃不过的字眼。
忙工作，忙上课，忙，忙，茫。。。
忙到最后，目的到底是什么？
那人生，追求的，又是什么？
心，揪了。

忙之余，是不是有更重要的东西，我们忽略了？
忙，仿佛是现代人的代名词，你若不忙，感觉像落伍了。
有一天我跟阿嬤打声招呼后，想继续‘忙’，被一句话拉住了。
‘陪阿嬤一下啦。。’，阿嬤轻道。
我才发觉，我连那么基本该做的还要别人来告诉我。

当拥有着的时候，时间久了，会慢慢忘了自己拥有着。
直到残酷的现实让人尝了失去的滋味，才恍然大悟。
有第二次机会，那就最好不过了。
但，没那么幸运的话，也许会自责或后悔一辈子。

我好害怕，好害怕失去。
我连想都不敢想。
一直觉得，他们怎么会离我而去？
有时候，会觉得很累。
我好想回到家里，过着不需要塞车的日子。
好想每天都在家里，想念了只需走几步路，敲敲门，就能看见亲爱的他们。

不管怎样，生活有它的规律。
心，要学习变得更强大。 

I..have a confession to make.

You know, human have emotions.
Unfortunately, it is not always a good thing when your mood is immediately known via your expression or tone.
I don't like to hide anything so I would just express everything out.
After that, I will be overwhelmed with guilt.
Sometimes, even anger.

What's the point of keep repeating the same mistake and then keep saying you are guilty?
This is the act of a LOSER.

I know, one day, I too will grow old.
I, will become like them, slow, confused, stubborn.
I know, I should treat them with patience, care and love.
I know I know.
But, sometimes, our perceptions are different and when they insist on doing something that we think is not proper, volume goes up to convey the message we want to pass, forgetting that their hearing are deteriorating, their intention are actually very simple, and they can be easily satisfied.

This is a long road of learning.
Time, is running. They never stop growing older, weaker.
We, play a part, to be with them.

I am sorry. I will do what I should.

Happy Holidays

I don't know what happened to me.
At times, I just feel like staying at home the whole day long.
And once in a while, I don't know which wire in the brain goes wrong, I want to go out so badly.
This normally happens on weekend.
This feeling is especially sucks when it happens during the exam period.
This feeling is sucker when everyone made a plan for outing and then cancelled them.
Leaving behind a girl feeling i-dunno-how-to-describe.

Hmm, it is raining so heavily right now.
Sometimes, I feel kind of guilty for doing nothing during the holidays.
And sometimes, I feel bad for not using the holidays to the fullest.
Thus, sometimes, I don't know what I want. (This is suckest. )

Anyway, Happy Holidays to myself. =D

终于考完试了!!
带着兴奋和迫不及待的心情回家~
可是，一进门就看见阿公眼部和额头都瘀青了。
问了阿公你做么。
很明显，是明知故问。
他，又跌到了。

唉，我忍不住，又对他大声了。
对不起。
但是，我不懂。
为什么他不要听话呢?
为什么他不要好好照顾自己?
也许，我不是他，所以，我不懂。

如果我是他，我会怎么做? 会怎么想?
这次没事，那下次呢?
他到底几时才会听话呢?
都是没答案的问号。
很想帮忙，说也说过，劝也劝过，无能为力。
希望上天保佑。

圣诞节快乐

可曾试过，什么都不想做?
只想静静地，就静静地坐着，闭上双眼......
让思绪回荡，再回荡....

尤其是在佳节期间，更是容易这样子。
读读一下，忽然发觉自己已经在发呆的状态。

生活有很多事情都是很难解释的。
就好像我不懂为什么阿公冲凉要冲上一个小时。
这时，正是尿急人士该将耐心派上用场的时候。

不管多么不想要做，我还是得这样做。
因为，没尽一百分努力的后果，不是一般的难受。

不能想象一天没有音乐的日子。
它，让情绪起伏。
它，能勾起记忆。
它，会让嘴角不自觉地往上挂 。
它，陪伴过多少个失眠的夜晚。
它，也让学习有了它更添乐趣。

二十岁的世代，是个怎么样的样子?
只知道，不能再任性。
也是个学习承担责任的年纪。
从被照顾到学习照顾，
从被劝告到学习安慰，
从爱逃避到学习面对。

告诉自己，自己已经拥有了很多很多。
就该像杰伦所说的，
努力过生活，知足最快乐。

最后，圣诞节快乐!!

Love

Time is passing so rapidly, mercilessly, leaving signs on the face of our loved ones. During weekdays I would be away from home and only come back during weekends. That is the moment I look forward to. Every time I look at them after a week, they look more tired and more wrinkles are running over their face. I do not know how to describe my feeling, just plain heart-ache.

Firstly, my lovely Dad. I understand his stress, his worries, his tiredness. Not only he needs to work outside, he also do everything himself when he is home. He said, everything and everyone is dependent on him. He seldom complains and I really hope to help. However, my help is always in vain as I am not alert enough to do what is supposed to do. Meanwhile, I did blamed when any of them in the family did not contribute and left everything to him. Anyway, this is called life. When you care too much, you get more tired.

And then my ah ma. She is much skinnier and also weaker now. Even walking can cause her running out of breath. I feel so sorry when I did not give much assistance. I am sorry when I did not wait for her to finish her sentences patiently. I am sorry when I turned away while she was being negative. I am sorry for being rude to her. I am sorry for not bringing her out often because I thought she was troubling me. I am sorry I am sorry. Recently, she keeps saying she has insomnia at night and had dreams about the deceased. She also said she has not much time left. Often time I tried to ignore yet couldn't help but feel sad at the thought of it. I assured her that she is healthy and she will not leave!

I really hope that I will always appreciate everything and everyone around me. I LOVE THEM.

Malaysian driver?

After the class finished, I went straight out from the lecture hall, to the lift, down the floors, towards my car. I walked and smiled a little when I saw my car. As I was approaching, I noticed something. Some obvious scratches on the side of my car! Red colour paint can be seen! Damn you red car driver, was all I thought. I was hoping it was not some deep scratches. Too bad, it was!

Sigh, I shouldn't have park down here. Why think that they will avoid your car when some drivers are just idiots on the road? It's my fault for parking beside the narrow road. I will never ever ever ever park there again. Mood was affected. On the way back home, my mind was all on whether the scratches can be polished and then removed. Too bad again, polish couldn't help as the scratches are too deep.

I feel like cursing the stupid driver. It seems like I am being a little overdramatic.Sigh. And then I thought of how I scratched my neighbour's car two years ago when I first got my P license. The car alarm rang and the green paint left on it. Everyone would know it was whose 'good job' as there was only one bright green car on that street. Because I was on the rush that day, I just raised my hand to my forehead which signalling 'sorry' and drove away. Although I went to apologize to uncle on the other day, now only I understand that feeling. I really appreciated his forgiveness. Maybe I should do the same thing. Good deeds can cause an impact to the other person and without knowing it becomes a cycle which passes around. The only difference is I don't know who the stupid driver is.

Phew I feel much better after pouring everything out. I guess I got to get some rest first and then fight tomorrow! Don't get me wrong. I am not going to search that person out. Just, fight for the test! Go Go Yee Wen!

Le bread

Today is Monday. I woke up early so that I wouldn't be stuck in the jam which eventually cause unnecessary frustration. The exam was over and one more left. Not the end yet as more are coming.

Talking about yesterday, I followed my Dad to Mid Valley to buy cake for my grandpa. We went there because he said that the cake there look nice. Actually that was fruit tart and Dad didn't know about it. Luckily there was still a whole, complete tart and we bought it. The main thing I want to talk about is, I actually bought a bread cost RM9.80. Dad didn't realized it was that expensive until it was paid. The bread is almost as hard as a rock. I had a bite this morning, and it is just some normal, tasteless flour. A bread cost RM9.80, only a not-so-smart person will buy it I guess? Filled with regret, I asked my friends to try and give comments. Some of them said not bad and quite nice. At least that made me feel better. Until I went home and let my aunt to try. She said that she would consider even if it is a RM0.98 bread. T.T

What bother me is not only the money spent, but also the stupidity shown. Why I bought it? Because I saw the tag 'walnut and cheese' written, I thought it must be some cheesy yummy incredibly delicious bread with that kind of price. Who knows that 'good-looking' thing only has the appearance and no content? I should have thought of a bread is not worth that much. Now I am having an issue with a BREAD. I feel heart-ache, what more the one who paid for it. I know that at that moment, if I was using my own hard-earned money, I wouldn't even look at it. I feel sorry for my Dad. I promise myself that I will think twice before buying anything in the future.

We had a dinner celebration. After a nice meal, we ate the tart bought while having some nice chit-chat. We talked about the 'Gangnam style' played outside, the married couple to the trip we had 2 years ago.That was the first time we saw snow and we were excited every time the topic was raised. Sweet memories are something money can't buy and they will be with you forever. I am glad that we have them and will continue to make more.

下輩子，無論愛與不愛，都不會再見

~下輩子，無論愛與不愛，都不會再見~


我兒：寫這備忘錄給你，基於三個原則：
一、人生福禍無常，誰也不知可以活多久，

有些事情還是早一點說好。

二、我是你的父親，我不跟你說，沒有人會跟你說。

三、這備忘錄記載的，
都是我經過慘痛失敗得回來的體驗，
可以為你的成長省回不少冤枉路。


以下，便是你在人生中要好好記住的事：

對你不好的人，你不要太介懷，
在你一生中，沒有人有義務要對你好，
除了我和你媽媽。
至於那些對你好的人，你除了要珍惜、感恩外，
也請多防備一點，因為，每個人做每件事，
總有一個原因，
他對你好，未必真的是因為喜歡你，
請你必須搞清楚，而不必太快將對方看作真朋友。

沒有人是不可代替的，沒有東西是必須擁有的。
看透了這一點，將來你身邊的人不再要你，
或許失去了世間上最愛的一切時也應該明白，
這並不是什麼大不了的事。

生命是短暫的，今日你還在浪費著生命，
明日會發覺生命已遠離你了。
因此，愈早珍惜生命，你享受生命的日子也愈多，
與其盼望長壽，倒不如早點享受。


世界上並沒有最愛這回事，
愛情只是一種霎時的感覺，
而這感覺絕對會隨時日、心境而改變。

如果你的所謂最愛離開你，請耐心地等候一下，
讓時日慢慢沖洗，讓心靈慢慢沉澱，
你的苦就會慢慢淡化。
不要過分憧憬愛情的美，不要過分誇大失戀的悲。


雖然很多有成就的人士並沒有受過很多教育，
但並不等於不用功讀書，就一定可以成功。

你學到的知識，就是你擁有的武器。
可以白手興家，但不可以手無寸鐵，謹記！

我不會要求你供養我下半輩子，
同樣地我也不會供養你的下半輩子。
當你長大到可以獨立的時候，我的責任已經完結。
以後，你要坐巴士還是 Benz（賓士），
吃魚翅還是粉絲，都要自己負責。


你可以要求自己守信，但不能要求別人守信。
你可以要求自己對人好，但不能期待人家對你好。
你怎樣對人，並不代表人家就會怎樣對你。
如果看不透這一點，你只會徒添不必要的煩惱。

人要發達，還是要努力工作才可以，
世界上並沒有免費午餐。

親人只有一次的緣分，
無論這輩子我和你會相處多久，
也請好好珍惜共聚的時光。
下輩子，無論愛與不愛，都不會再見。

本文摘錄自~香港著名DJ~梁繼章先生~給兒子的信

父母要孝養，身體要保養，
飲食要營養，講話要涵養。

子女要教養，生病要調養，
感情要培養，做人要修養。

迷路的一天

此时此刻，我一定要把现在的心情写出来，不然会憋闷。一大早起床，我太高估马来西亚的交通状况了。平时十五分钟的路程，我半个小时前出门，真是太天真了。最重要的是，我是去考试的哦。喔，尽入眼帘的，不用多说，也知道。

不停地告诉自己，别紧张，没关系的，快到了。很悠哉地驾着驾着，越来越觉得不对劲，怎么还没到?原来，我....迷路了。已经到了吉隆坡市中心，立刻打电话问路。‘你现在在哪里?'  我真的不知道！！ 那就要回去 Jalan Kuching 再走过了。告诉自己，要冷静!突然想到是在PWTC对面，跟着路牌走，终于！啊!!到了，门关了。只好绕 No entry 的路去后门。
还被那边的人酸，说迟到了在校园honk.不管了，去找地点。
匆匆忙忙....

考speaking. 中间突然顿了很久，因为想不到points了。唉....挫败感...
终于考完了。当我还在为自己找到路暗自欢呼时，回家的路上我又....走错路了。 我爸明明说那条路很容易走，直直走就会到了。哦，我就’直直走‘咯。忽然之间来到了round about, 哪一条? 左转，又到了可恨的KL.

又走回刚刚的路，这次选择直走，该不会又走错吧?
这条是可以回到家，但好像走远了。还剩下最后一条路没走，也许是最靠近的也说不定。

或许，走错路不完全是坏事。走错了路，就会知道，这不对，接下来，就会走对啦。
有些事情，不能完全靠别人。就像那个’直直走‘，自己没去走，怎么知道，它是那么地直吗？
那条路对别人来说，可能很好走，但不一定适合自己。走过，走错，再走过，才懂。很多事情都必须要靠自己去经历。错了，也学会了。

下次，有长辈再说 '我吃盐多过你吃米' 的时候，我也可以理直气壮地说 '我迷路多过你吃番薯'.
=)

Having insomnia in the middle of the night makes us feel so helpless.
With only few hours of sleep, I actually woke up before the alarm rang.
Yes the brain never rest. To class, with my eyes on the lecturer and my mind wandered.
Today is Friday man! Today should be the day for me to go home!
However, the Saturday is occupied. One rest day is not enough!
Maybe I am already used to the relax way of passing time during the past few months, I find it really tiring coming back home after sunset.
Need time to adjust the life style.
And, I need to be tougher.
Go Go Yee Wen!

三更半夜，格外地想家。
之前得空时嫌太空闲，忙时怨没得好好休息。
凌晨三点多，好想...好想...

知道，生活中发生的每一件事情，都会带着一个讯息。
比较正确的说法，应该是，是得是失，当中有要你领悟的道理。
但，当你正真经历，小事，大事，不是像说的那么简单。
也许，单纯地把太多东西想得太简单，抑或是，想得太复杂。
转一转想法，心情也会跟着转变。
然而，这要是那么简单的话，那，就不会有‘烦恼’这家伙存在了。

不在家里，多了自由，多了放纵。
微笑，每一天都很美好。

Waking up early on Sunday morning. Morning!

There are so many things on my mind. Or perhaps human will never appreciate things until the day they lose it. I am just wondering about the path I am on now. Is it the correct one? I did not get the full support I need. Maybe we shouldn't be too dependent on people. I can't help but keep thinking about what will happen in few years time. Thinking too far? Yea I am afraid so.
It is not easy to 'Live the moment now'. Is there anyone out there manage to do this? 

In daily life, we meet people from different background with different personality. Even in our own family, 6 person means 6 different individual which are unique. It is common that we only fancy the good traits. However, the harmony will not last long if tolerance and trust are not there. Everyone has their own reason for things they have done.
Anyway, I just want to remind myself that I am already so lucky and blissful.

Everyday is beautiful. =)